Honestly, what actually went wrong in my life? or, to be more precise, when and how did everything go wrong in my life? I was stumbling over my LinkedIn profile and pondering over my half-assed resume that has not been updated for quite some time. I get so demotivated whenever I look at it though knowing I still have to proceed and submit my internship application after my final semester. Scrolling through countless job advertisements and the people who work in the industry making my mind slowly drifting away from the process of thought. I was not focused. Until I came to remember my passion when I was in high school as my eyes fell on the skills section. I have always loved literature and writing. I remember the praises I have gotten on the pieces I have poured my feelings on. But, the thing is, the days I am living in now are not the same like it was back then. I am not skilled in anything that is required in the engineering field. I do not know how to use any software or conduct and monitor any projects on my own. Even my writing is getting more technical when personally I prefer my pen to dance according to the rhythm of my thoughts. Now, my hands are hitting on the keyboard of my computer like a robot copying every verse of the resources on the internet. I can barely breathe in the sea with my other smart peers sprinting and diving through the end of the journey. Then, it hit me, I am drowning by myself. I have nothing to be proud of. I could barely pass or getting an A or even distinction during my studies. I could barely bring myself liking whatever that I was putting my nose on. I was struggling, and I still am. Then, why must the realization come hitting when I am only a step away from the finish line?

What actually went wrong?

When did it go wrong?

How did it go wrong?

Why does this life feel so wrong?