There was this boy I liked back in freshman year because he was funny and always came around to talk to me. He had a girlfriend in middle school and they just broke up before entering high school so he was very friendly with everyone. I kept it a secret for almost 2 years that I liked him and we kept being somewhat friends. In class, he would sometimes poke my sides or take my eraser when we were watching a movie in class and I acted like I didn't like it but I thought It was kinda cute. There was a time at lunch where he came to my table and he was teasing my friends saying you got a big nose, and to another about her forehead. And then he looked at me and for the longest second he didn’t say anything and just said “ and you.. Your just you” and walked away kind of embarrassed. 

 In sophomore year we had no classes together but I had a history class before him so every time at the end of the period I would see him and he would walk me to the end of the hallway and we would say bye. This happened for a couple of weeks until he got back together with his girlfriend from middle school and we just stopped talking with each other. This is also the time when I heard the rumors of him starting to drink a lot and I didn’t really like that about him. And this is also when I kinda got over him.

That summer they broke up and for some reason, my "friend" told him I liked him and kept it a secret from me.  I had to find out by myself self and now I know why he always gave me a weird look every time he said hi to my group of friends but would always ignore me. I remember that he told my friend in the text " why would she like me? we don't even talk that much.". I mean I get it we actually don’t talk much but at the time I at least didn’t feel like we were strangers. And my friend said at first he seemed excited and happy that I liked him but then later he met her in real life and told her to keep it a secret from me that he knows.

That year we didn't talk much because he was avoiding me and I didn't know until later. And I found out that he told his whole friend group that I liked him even though he wanted to keep it a secret from me. They also got back together again when school started. I was in a group called spirit committee where we took care of homecoming and pep fests. There was a time we had to stay after school to paint the windows for spirit week and all his friends were there so he stayed along and of course, I was there. We didn't talk at all. Then when it ended we were waiting for our rides and someone suggested playing a hand game. In the end, it was just me and him and I forgot who won but I remembered it was fun. It felt like my old feelings for him almost came back.

Senior year was probably the worst time for me because he created some stupid drama and I lost all my “friends”. He told his girlfriend that he use to sleep with this girl in my friend group back in middle school and the thing is his GF, me, and that girl he slept with, we all knew each other since kindergarten. Idk how and why it got so big but basically it seemed like he was making his gf jealous on purpose and the whole time my “friends”, his gf, and him were all just texting each other through messenger. Whenever they saw each other in real life they acted as if nothing happened. I thought this was all so stupid and that friend was involving all my friends and telling them what she’s texting just to make them hate the gf more and be on her side. So I confronted that girl(my friend) and told her what I really felt about this whole situation. I said something about how all this is stupid she should just drop it or talk to her in real life. This all happened back when we were 11-12 and honestly we are about to graduate. She looked at me and said “oh I see. You’re on her side.” and left. Soon they started to block me from social media and stopped talking to me. I got so tired of everything that I confronted them at lunch and if it wasn’t for my friend who stayed by my side, I would have pulled someone’s hair that day. I dropped them all and was thinking about college and everything now. But I couldn’t even concentrate because of everything that happened. I lost all my friends and only one person stayed with me. And then I graduated high school.

Literally a year later that same guy texted me around last week and asked to hang out. I was confused because I thought he was already dating/engaged to his gf(i saw on her Facebook status) but he said she clicked it on “accident” and they broke up. I didn’t know how to feel about this bc they probably just broke up like a couple of days ago or last week but here he is saying “hi, how you doin, you wanna hang out or somethin(like a little date)?”. At first, my mind said no. But then I honestly wanted to go. I mean he is single. I did like him at some point. But then I remember what he did back then. But then I remember the good times and how nice he was. I was this close to saying yes to his date but in the end, I said no bc he literally just broke up with that girl he “loved” and he probably feels sad so he’s coming to talk to me. But if it was a different girl I didn’t know and that whole situation back in senior year never happened then yes, I would go with him to that little date. I thought this would be the end of our conversation bc I told him my answer but the next day he texted me again. At first, I was confused but still a little bit happy that he texted me. I couldn’t text him a lot during the day bc I was busy but around 11 pm we were just texting back and forth and it was kinda cute bc he was obviously trying to flirt but I still kept my guard up bc it’s him. I just couldn’t trust him yet. Then he pops the question “can i ask you a personal question?” many things went through my mind, i thought he was going to ask about high school or something else so i said “then can i ask you one too?”. He said, “sure ladies first”. I didn’t want to go first so it went back and forth for a bit until he finally said “ ok how many boyfriends you’ve had or liked?”  I thought he was going to ask something more personal or something deeper so i answered and was thinking of ways to ask the question about why he broke up with her. Does he still like her? But because of his question, I couldn’t ask it. So instead I asked, “is there a reason you talked to me?” I thought it was going to take him a little longer to text it but it was under 2 minutes. He just said something like I looked lonely back then, he thought about it and he also thought I was “cute”. I was kinda offended tbh bc who wants to hear that they are lonely? I mean yeah I was mostly alone in class, i had a few friends. But it was like why would you say i looked lonely then say i was also cute? Idk. Anyways it was getting late and told him i had to go sleep and he said okay goodnight. I kinda froze because it was the first time in my 19 years someone texted goodnight to me lol. So I was thinking of ways to say it back like “gn” or writing it all out or just say “ you too!”. I ended up writing it all out. The next morning he said good morning and I wrote it back. He said something else after and I didn’t get to write back bc I was busy and then later he wrote i hope you’re having a great day! And I told him I won’t be able to text him bc i will be busy all day and then ha said no worries its nice just to hear you reply. And I didn’t say anything after bc i had to go. And then all of a sudden he stopped texting me and now it’s been a week. So the big question is should I text him back? Should i try to text him again? Why do I care so much that he stoped texting me?