Stop running from your responsibilities as a father, i know you can't go home yet since lockdown happened but please think of us even tho mom is cheating on you atleast send money for your stupid business that isnt giving any profit for you. We aint even asking money from you anymore since manang (older sister) is working overseas. We are struggling since my uncle was lynching off our food and shizz. He doesnt even have money to buy groceries yet he got the audacity to finish everything and doesnt leave smth to be re-heated. Thats another reason why i wanted my dad to go home. Like i know your relationship with mom is tearing apart but can you atleast think of me? Once dad comes home my mom will go overseas too. To work and spend me money to pay the bills and debt. She doesnt trust dad with the money since he might just use it all for his business like i am supportive on his business, he's very passionate about it but it takes ALOT of money. I'm just bummed that he loves the business more than his family. He would give all of his money to the business but we are left starving and its not right anymore. This is why i wanna just move out but i can't since I'm still a minor and i have no job. Its so hard picking sides on where should i live since both sides of my familys are toxic and just straight up silent abusive. I dont want that anymore. I've been thinking if i commit suicide would it be enough for my parents to wake up and think of their actions? It's a stupid idea but who knows it might work right? Probably but I'm not doing it. I'm giving up on life from now on its just urgh. I totally need help, my mental health is definitely decreasing each day. Verbal abuse is worst than physical abuse for my opinion cuz it can ruin you deeply and permanently it can't be easily be cure since like you were used to it. It's so hard now. Why can't we just have nice and decent parents..? I feel like crying but there's no more tears left on me. I'm just accepting it since i got no choice lol. I wish i wasn't a burden.. kids shouldn't be grateful for their parents tbh it feels like we're indebt to them no offense yall :<< this is the last note i want everyone to OWN YOUR DON'T LEAVE IT AS IF YOU DIDN'T DO ANYTHING, OWN IT AND DEAL WITH IT. DON'T ABANDON IT.