Hi guys,

My newest fic, "He walks on a flower road," is my last fic for EunHae. It is completed.

If you have been keeping up with me since the beginning of my journey here in AFF as a writer, you would know that I think a lot. Sometimes, more than necessary. However, when I do make a move, I really mean it. Although it pains me to say it, I am not going to write anymore EunHae fics. Don't get me wrong, I still love them, but one cannot forever keep their mind in a fantasy. I will always love them and our Super Junior boys, but they are no longer the men that they were in the beginning of their journey as the Hallyu Wave Kings. I have loved them for almost, what, ten years? SUJU is in a good place, in the entertainment industry, and while their company continues to put them in the back burner, they always thrive in their own ways. Pretty soon, they will have their own family and children, and out of respect, I know I have to do this. I don't think I will feel comfortable when they have their family and I'm still writing fics about them getting it on. Lol. It is unfortunate though, since I have some pending fics to be written. Oh well. 

Anyways, as you all know, I always write what I want to write. Sometimes I feel pressure to cater to people's interests, but in the end, a writer's work is the most important to themselves. Readers might have gotten what they wanted, but as writers, we tend to overthink. Are we actually writing what we want to write? Are people actually liking our work, or are they just here for the plotless that some people look for? (That's not a bad thing, though, those are sometimes really good! However.). Some writers want to delve into nuances and explore topics that interest them. Some want to put more substancial plots into their fics. Some want to write a fic that is good without the need for . It is not just fanfiction for them, it is their art. They are putting themselves out there, breaking their hearts open for you to see/read. I have writer friends whom I share these kinds of thoughts with, and I have learned a lot from them, and will continue to do so. I also want to keep advocating for them. Fanfic writers in a fandom are the backbones of your fan/stan life. They do this for free. 

I will not stop writing of course. I must grow. EunHae had provided me the scaffold in which I can grow and expand my horizons as a young writer. Now, I think it's time for me to venture out. I'm still writing, I will keep on writing. I will not stop writing. Even in the months that I was not writing here, I was on AO3, or in my private twitter writing. I write anything, I write down my thoughts, my plans, poems, snippets of a plot that will never see the light of the day. I love writing, and I believe in my ability to write and for me to keep on loving it, I need to write more. I need to improve and just do more. 

I just want to express my gratitude to everyone of you who had subscribed, commented or upvoted my fics. I really appreciate you. You made me feel loved. I was encouraged to do more. Thank you so much. I really have no words to how grateful I am to you. Thank you for taking the time to read my fics. Thank you for enduring the long wait for the next update. You may not know this, but every writer remembers who have been with them from Day 1.

I have been meaning to post this last year, but as things got chaotic, I needed time to decide if this is what I want. 

I have many author friends here, and rest assured, I will still be checking up on you all, be it on twitter, or our private conversations. I will read your stuff, do not worry, just send them to me XD. I am always happy to read them. 

As for budding young writers, or if you have that vague idea sitting on your mind for a while, write that one-shot. Write that short fic. Write it. You are your only critique. Who is keeping score but you? As for veteran writers, do not grow weary. Do not feel as if the comments are your worth. It is not–you have created something valuable and beautiful. Keep on writing. Never give up, perfect your craft. You are always going to be improving. 

I do not know if I will still write here, but they will not be EunHae. I am in the process of making my older fics available–which I put in the drafts, so that in the future, if you want to go back and read my stuff, you are able to access them. I am also in AO3 and will transfer some of my best works there. I have the same username. 

Thank you. And goodbye. Keep loving Super Junior. 

Write on, always. 

Angelica ~