Recently, I was slapped by a sudden, shocking news that one of my beloved person is going to get married, and is expecting a baby. It breaks me into tears, a lot of them and almost everytime when I think about it. But that doesn't mean I am upset about it. I was too taken aback, realizing, "So the time has already come? This soon?". And that's how I swallowed the fact; that their youth has already coming to an end. Because this isn't dating news that we have received several times. Being a husband, being a father; that was a wholesome new level of life. And upon knowing that Jongdae has reached there earlier than anyone else, it feels strange. It's like letting go of your kids.

EXO are my everything, they play a big part of my life, I'm turning 22 this year, and almost half of it, I've spent it with them, cheering for them ever since debut. Seeing Sehun graduating from school, their first win, first daesang, three members departure, dating news, breakup news, Winter Olympics, Dubai Fountain, first member enlistment, second member enlistment, all their ups and downs, you name it. I've been there from the start.

And now I'm still here.

It gives me a weird, sad yet happy feelings. "We've really come this far, aren't we?" That's my line now, everytime I think about it.

I cried a lot, worrying, "Jongdae, I hope that this will lead to a happier life, as an EXO member, the solo artist Chen and most importantly as Kim Jongdae as a person. So that you won't regret it in the future. So that we can still smile at each other with you on the stage and with me in the sea of cosmic latte." But I feel happy too, heaven knows how adorable he is and now imagine that he's with his child? Isn't that going to be a lovely sight?

Jongdae has now decided to be with the person he loves, and many of us celebrate the news, congratulate him just like he deserves. But that doesn't mean you can't be sad about it. It's your feelings, embrace it. I wish your tears will dry up, and new bright day will come onto you. But please, no hate for him, and for his family. He's just a person like us, and those people are the person who gives him strength and courage, since we never know what happened behind the stage. It is never wrong to love someone, never wroing in wanting to be with the person you love. He's a grown-up, it's his life, his decision. He doesn't owe anyone anything, in fact, we, the fans are the one who decided to give our all towards him, isn't it? So don't hate him. I beg you.

He gives us a lot of love, I've been to EXO concert and Jongdae, I swear to God, is the person who would walk to every section, waving, smiling like his mouth could wear off anytime soon. He is the guy who will look at you in the eyes during fansign, bright smile, twinkle in his pair of orbs. His love for his fans is always pure and genuine. So please, even after this, nothing will change. Jongdae is always like that. Our love isn't that shallow, right?

After all, we are his fans; EXO-L and Soondingies,  we can't do anything but to love him and respect his decision. I know, this is a big step, it's worrying, it's frightening and nerve-wrecking.

But let's look at the bright side. The person we cherish has found his person. As if we won't find one for us in the future, we surely would as well, right? And let's not forget that he wrote the letter for us, Eris, with a hopeful thought that "They'll understand me, they'll stay. I trust them". He must've contemplated a lot this whole time, but still, he chooses to have faith in us.

So why won't we too, have some faith in him?

Now it's Jongdae's turn, maybe after this the other members, Baekhyun, Sehun, Chanyeol, Yixing, Junmyeon, Minseok, Jongin, my baby Kyungsoo, and we will too. It's written up there in heaven, with whom would you spend your life with, your destiny. The path is actually already there, it's only either when will you walk on it.

For Eris, for his fans, for everyone, I hope you will be okay if you aren't now, and please, please keep him, all EXO members in our prayers. Pray that they will always be the nine person on stage, making music together, fooling around together, genuine smile on their face whilst leading a happy personal, private life of their own. Because that's what we've promised all this time. Especially on the 31st December 2019. Because that's what love is.

For the girlfriend, please take a good care for him and yourself. He's precious to millions of people and you are precious to our Jongdae. So I pray that you guy will always be happy forever.

And for Jongdae, man, honestly there's tons of things I wanted to say to you but all I could now is, please be happy. Always and always. Congratulations on your upcoming marriage, congratulations on having the baby. I wish nothing for you but happiness all along, together with your family, together with EXO and EXO-Ls. Because that's what you, the kindest person, deserves the most. I love you so much, with all my heart.

So now, shall we be together, for a long, long time?