so, im old. and this past year ive been thinking a lot about getting kids.

im single but in this day and age honestly, nothing can stop me so i could get help and get a kid regardless. i guess im just a little scared because it's a big commitment and everything. 

but the thing is, i really want one or two. and the more i think, the more i really want to get pregnant now. is it going to be easy? no, ofc not, im one woman and only have my one salary and stuff. but it's just ... i would really like kids. 

so now ive started thinking of baby names too and ive honestly already settled on some seriously old names for the baby girls if i get any. but they're old danish names. 

i still don't really know about boy names, tho. because ive always loved the name jonathan but it sounds better in english than it does in danish. but i guess i have a few.

i dont know, im too old but i just want kids. i should write family stories more. i think ill do that, write a lot of soft family au's to get over my urge for kids. or maybe solidify it even more and decide to go for the fertility treatment and get a kid.