im just very frustrated with myself and my story rn. because of course i had to care about realism and rewrite scenes to make them more realistic and of course i had to take the story in a different direction and of course i had to write myself into a bind and i don't know how to write myself out of that bind again either. 

i ing at writing. im . im so tired of long stories. this is why i was a oneshot-only writer because that is done when it's done. 

long stories are a mess. they're chaotic evil. they're the devil, the satan, the lucifer. 

so curse me for getting inspiration that ends up in long stories. "oh but minji, why does it have to be a long story?" i dont know, the characters demand that this cannot be done in 10k, that's why. 

i don't feel like i can delete anything either. 

but i swear, this is not going to be an ames soeurs monster because i cant deal with that and my 6 subs probably cant either. im just so tired. argh. story. 

and no, im not giving up either because i havent written in a year and i like this idea. i just .. need to rant my frustration. you know? no? good on you. 

also, sorry to those 6 subs that 28c takes forever for me to write. i wanted to publish the beginning of it but i'd feel bad if i had to halfass the ending too. so that's why im writing it full before posting. sorry. <3