I am so frustrated that no matter how many times I edit, I keep finding errors every time I re-read. WTF? I swore all these words were not like this when I last edited them. Do I keep having to go back and re-read in order to have it properly checked? Why are my program eating up these words? Is there like a computer ghost that is eating up words in between my sentences? WHAT IN THE WORLD? ( You can tell I'm frustrated and angry because this keep happening). Idk how many times I have edit a story, a chapter. Like about 5 times before I update and then re-read it a few more times because I like to do this a lot and each time I would find something. WTF? Ugh. It's small stuff like this that makes me fed up with writing. How many times do I have to re-read a chapter for words not to go missing? OMG @_@. The more I think about it the more frustrated I am about this. 

You can tell me to get a beta, but my own schedule will clash with everyone else. And honestly, this is just me being a perfectionist and beta wouldn't like working with me. I would be the pain in the [redacted] for all betas. 

SIGH.