when others are asked to describe her, the word most often used is charming. she’s a real people person, listening and engaging intently with everyone she comes into contact with. there’s almost always a smile on her face and if there isn’t, the moment she sets her eyes on you there will be one. she’s pretty easy to talk to, even if you’re not a talker she’ll come up something random to talk about in order to spark a conversation. she genuinely cares about giving others a genuine conversation and her full attention. that being said, she’s quite the empathetic soul. she doesn't only understand other’s feelings and emotions; she feels them herself. if someone she is close to is sad, she’ll also be sad. it is also easy for her to feel and read other people’s aura. she’s not sure what it is exactly that allows her to sense and feel other’s emotions, she just feels them.

sueun when doing something she loves or something she is just mildly interested in, she will put her heart and soul into it. go big or go home she believes. she’s also quite the dreamer, often getting lost in her thoughts and daydreams on the daily. she’s not afraid to follow her heart and dreams, even if she isn’t 100% confident in what she wants. when faced with a problem, she tends to come up with some of the most out of the world solutions, only being brought back into reality when someone tells her the most practical way to solve the problem. depending on the person, she’ll either acknowledge that she was thinking a little to creatively or that they’re just being party pooper. she’s not afraid to go against the norms, or stand up against people, or even do the wildest things. this often times works in her favor because she’s able to follow her heart hence she feels completely happy, but often times it also leads her into trouble because she gets into situations she shouldn’t be in or fights that aren’t worth her fighting for.

getting into situations she shouldn’t be in has been a common occurrence throughout her life because of her curious nature. who likes who? who hates who? she enjoys being in the gossip loop and love love loves watching drama from afar. curiosity killed the cat is the common saying and one of these days sueun’s curiosity might kill her, but so far it hasn’t, though she has been close (cue the one time she got a black eye from interfering in a fight between sohee and a neighborhood bully). her parents were not happy, but at the same time felt pride that their daughter was growing up to be a good person who would stand up for others.

being an only child with two fulltime working parents, sueun grew up to be fiercely independent. she dislikes having to ask others for help, unless she’s close to them. she’d rather try to solve her problems by herself without getting others involved and or worrying others. because she refuses to ask for help from others, she has a tendency to stress herself out which reflects either in her mood, school performance or athletic performance. her independent nature also plays into her secretive nature. despite being a “people person” and being able to find topics to talk about with others, when it comes to sharing information about herself she doesn’t. it takes her quite a while to trust others, but when she does she’s fully open about every aspect of her life and will be dependent on them once and a while.

once close to her, it becomes quickly apparent that she’s quite sensitive. she’s afraid of being a disappointment to her parents, her family and most importantly herself. she plays off the rude or mean things people say when confronted with it, but when she’s in her private space she’ll cry. she cries when she’s sad, angry, irritated or just stressed, all in private of course (or in the presence of her with her trusted cousin or bffs). because of her sensitive nature, it's sometimes difficult to talk to her about issues that concern herself, specifically concerns that revolve around how she behaves. she'll either shut down completely and won't reply, or she'll just brush it off and walk away. when it comes to her academic performance and soccer performance she has learned how to take the criticism she receives with a grain of salt because she knows after altering how she does things, or her level of effort, the end result will show. however, when it comes to people criticizing her personality or the way she behaves she doesn't know how to take it because she can't change who she is. she has often heard she's being a "teacher's pet" or a "kiss " since she spends the extra time to talk to her teachers mostly so they can understand her situation with soccer (and having to miss classes sometimes). she can't not talk to her teachers. when she overhears such comments, she brushes it off in front of them and her friends, but when she's alone at night she tries not to let their comments get to her, but she can't help herself and will either cry herself to sleep, call her cousin so he can comfort her or just become extremely to herself for the following days until she gets over it.

those who are close to sueun are also swift to realize that sueun is unpredictable. since she has a habit of following her heart and not being afraid to do so, sueun has a tendency to at per her heart and or gut. her independent and secretive nature do not help at all either because she’ll most definitely act before consulting anyone (unless her heart and gut don’t know what to do). some view this trait as a positive because by being unpredictable, she's able to stay true to her own feelings without influence from outside sources and her unpredictable nature makes her unique as her choices differ greatly from the predictable. that is true, but in sueun's case she runs on the extreme end of unpredictable. there are much easier ways to do simple tasks, but sueun tends to select the most tedious ways to do it (which are indeed funny to watch, but she wastes time doing them). there are social ques and predictable reactions to certain situations that help make the conversations flow accordingly and help set the mood, but in a way sueun can be dense and gives odd replies which end in the mood being "ruined" and replaced with nothing but laughter or odd stares. she's sometimes her own without realizing it.

lastly, but most definitely not least sueun is competitive. she wants to be the best at everything and if she’s not, she wants to at least stand out. she doesn’t necessarily have bad sportsmanship, but she will be pretty moody for a while after she loses. since she is so competitive, she takes a lot of small competitions out of proportion as she’ll put her 110% effort into it in order to win. that being said, her competitive nature leads her to into biting off more than she can chew. who can lift the most weights? who can chug the most amount of yakults? who can hold their breath underwater the longest? needless to say, sueun has ended up in the nurses office plenty of times and has also been flicked on the forehead a thousand times more for losing.

sueun considers kiwoo more than a cousin, he’s like an older brother to her. she’s trusts kiwoo with all her concerns and will be the first one she goes to whenever she’s going through a hard time or needs good advice. kiwoo adores her as a cousin and little sister. he’ll do anything to make sure she’s happy and safe. she can get annoying quickly, but he doesn’t mind too much unless it’s during his finals week. he does worry a lot about her however, first about how curious yet independent and secondly her unpredictable, secretive and sensitive nature. he knows that she will most likely not hide anything from him, but he can never be too sure about her.

jaemin rapidly turned his head to look at her, “y-you will?”

sueun nodded and replied with a wide smile, “yes!”

jaemin immediately smiled and wiped his tears away with the back of his hands before holding her hand tightly. the two then carefully sat on the edge of the slide and after jaemin told her he was ready, they slid down. an excited scream left sueun’s mouth, while jaemin clung onto her hand for dear life. once at the bottom sueun cheered and jaemin let out a relieved sigh. jaehyuk and his friends were waiting and jaemin quickly hopped off the slide to join them. sueun smiled seeing the boy join his friends. however, her joy seeing the boy and his friends reunited quickly turned into concern hearing the boy through another fit.

“but hyung! i came down the slide,” jaemin cried while dropping onto his knees in the woodchips his head hung low as jaehyuk and his friends ran off. sueun being worried for the boy walked over and crouched next to him.

“hey, i’ll play with you. those guys are meanies,” sueun said with a gentle smile.

jaemin looked up at her and straightaway smiled seeing that it was the same girl who went down the slide with him.

“okay. let’s play,” jaemin replied before he stood up, brushing his knees of the woodchips that stuck while forgetting all about his brother.

sueun smiled, standing up as well and once he was finished cleaning himself, the two ran off back to the jungle gym with jaemin showing her the funniest things to do and play.

after two hours of playing sueun’s mom told her it was time to go home. she almost threw a fit before jaemin said they could always play another time. just as sueun and her mom exited the park, jaemin went running after them yelling at the top of his lungs, “wait! wait! wait!!”

the two immediately stopped and turned to look at him. he smiled seeing they had stopped and panted a few times before asking, “what’s your name? my name’s na jaemin.”

sueun’s mother chuckled and grinned before looking down at sueun.

“my name’s choi sueun,” sueun replied with a smile.

“JAEMIN! LETS GO!” a boy’s voiced yelled from the park.

“my brother’s calling me, i have to go. let’s play again tomorrow, okay!” jaemin said with the biggest smile before he ran off.

needless to say, the two did play almost every day together from that day on until sueun moved.
 

after walking for a few blocks, sueun had found an empty half soccer field and made herself at home, doing the practices she remembered from her soccer team back in new zealand. while she was busy occupied with playing soccer she didn’t notice that jaemin and a few of his friends had shown up to the basketball court that laid parallel to the soccer field.

“hey, isn’t that the new girl who moved in down the street from you jaemin?” one of his friends asked while look out at sueun who was busy with her soccer ball.

“who? oh-“ jaemin paused as he also looked out at the field, “yeah, it looks like her, but i could be wrong. haven’t introduced myself to her family yet because they looked stressed. but hey, we came here to practice not to stare at a girl.”

his friends laughed before they got to their own basketball game.

this cycle of them playing their respective sport side by side continued on for a while until one day something changed.

sueun had been practicing harder than normal because school was starting soon. she however, didn’t notice how much time had passed, despite it having grown significantly darker as the sun was starting to set. she decided it was time to go home and when she went to take a sip of water from her water bottle, she noticed she was out of water. luckily however, there was a water fountain in the park that she could refill her water at. upon walking to the water fountain she noticed that the group of boys who were usually there we no longer there, but instead there only seemed to be one of them practicing all by himself. she found it slightly odd because they were always together, but she didn’t think too much about it because it was none of her business. once she reached the water fountain, she began filling it up before someone called out, “heads!”

she immediately looked and saw a basketball flying towards her. doing what her instinct wanted, she dropped her water bottle and soccer ball in order to catch the basketball before it hit her straight in the face. after she caught the ball, she let out a breath that she wasn’t aware she was holding.

“i’m so sorry,” the male from the basketball court exclaimed as he went to fetch her soccer ball that had rolled away from her.

“it’s okay. it happens,” sueun replied with a small chuckle hoping to ease the boy from feeling bad. she picked up her dropped water bottle while still holding onto his basketball as he retrieved her soccer ball.

when he came back with her soccer ball, he flashed an apologetic smile, “i’m still sorry. thanks for catching the ball and I’m sorry for almost hitting you.”

“no, no. it’s okay, really,” sueun said, flashing her own reassuring smile.

“here, i’ll trade you,” jaemin said, holding out her soccer ball.

sueun chuckled and handed his basketball back before taking her soccer ball, “thank you for getting my ball.”

“yeah, of course. i made you drop it, so it’s the least i could do,” he stated, his smile still never leaving his face.

the two stood there in awkward silence for a moment before sueun spoke, “do you need someone to play with?”

jaemin raised an eyebrow at her question.

“i mean, just someone to toss the ball with? i see you guys play a lot and i’ve played a bit myself and it’s always funner playing with someone else, but if you don’t want to play with someone else I totally get,” she said quickly hoping to clear her intentions and explain herself.

jaemin let out an amused laugh at her rambling before he responded, “if you’re not tired out from soccer, i could use a guard for a little bit.”

sueun smiled softly, “you sure?” she didn’t want to force him into saying yes, she just knew how it feels to play a team sport by themselves.

“yeah of course,” jaemin replied with a reassuring smile as he urged her to follow him to the court.

after playing for about an hour, the two decided it was time to head home. they had gotten to know each other a little bit during their game, mostly just talking about sports and their likes and dislikes. however, they came to a full on stop when sueun mentioned her name, “oh and by the way, i’m sueun.”

“wait. wait. your name is sueun?” jaemin asked quickly, pulling her to a stop in the middle of the sidewalk.

she blinked a few times at his reaction before nodding slowly, “yeah. my name’s sueun. choi sueun in case you’re mistaking me for another sueun…”

“oh my god. OH MY GOD,” jaemin mumbled loudly to himself before asking, “did you by chance use to live in the same house you moved into?”

sueun squinted her eyes, looking at him suspiciously, “I’m not sure how you would know that, but yes. i lived here for a year before moving, but my parents wanted to move back so here I am.”

jaemin’s eyes widened, “oh my god. do you remember a little boy you used to play with in this neighborhood? at the jungle gym?”

sueun tilted her head in thought before her own eyes widened, “no way. there’s no way. no way!”

jaemin beamed with happiness, a wide smile on his face as he just stared at her.

“you’re jaemin! like the na jaemin?? the one who i went down the slide with??” sueun asked excitedly.

“yes! oh my god! you’re back!” jaemin yelled before hugging her with his free arm.

she smiled and laughed loudly at his hug. neither of them expected to ever meet each other again. she thought he would have moved by now and he thought that she was never coming back. after figuring out that they know each other, they hung out a lot more and caught up on all the time lost. the two still clicking as they did when they were kids.

TLDR: sueun and jaemin met at the age of 6 on the playground in their neighborhood. they were close friends for about two years before sueun moved away due to her father's job. at the age of 14, her parents decide to move back to the house they had originally bought, thus they move back. they meet again at the age of 14 at the park again under different circumstances.
 

sueun contemplates on confronting jaemin about his feelings because she just got into a relationship and doesn't want to hurt jaemin. after asking advice from multiple sources (her friends and her cousin) she finally confronts jaemin about the letter. after finding out that they are past feelings, sueun feels regretful that she didn't just confess. when she comes clean to jaemin about having liked thim before too, the both of them can't help but feel a little regretful that neither of them said anything. despite that, they hope to remain good friends and wish the best for each other. jaemin tells her that no matter what, she'll always be the only girl he'll ask to play basketball with and that makes sueun blush.