Flashbacks

It's the middle of the night. I couldn't force myself to sleep so I logged in and randomly thought of checking my old blogs and comments. Then, realizations came crushing through.

Seems like, I was the one who deviated from everybody. I was the one who created the distance and got disappointed with myself a multiple times. I'm just... I'm so sorry to everyone. Thank you for everything and I'm really sorry... I cant find the right words to say.

Perhaps, I need to have a rest and get off from the site.

I'm sorry I had to give up in writing.

Again, tonight, I'll cry myself to sleep.

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miszthien #1 Oct 23, 2018 10:19:10

I wish i could help you fwen..i know it hard for you and if i in your shoes i'll be doin the same thing.

Hey try to cheer up you still have us..you can share everthing with us.we wont mind. okey (♡˙︶˙♡)

zangsia1 #2 Oct 19, 2018 22:03:35

I hope that you will find joy in writing and i believe that when someone write a story that there are people you will expect to read it but also comment on it that spurs you to write and inspires you to continue. I wish i can make you sty and write bec you write so well authornim but as emotional you may have been that is your given right5 to be. A story is a creation of5 love blood sweat and tears and no one has a right to judge you for being protective of your stories or for your following to understand how you can be downright disappointed with thier reactions. Stay focus with you and your heart. No one can tell you to continue in this site or to continue writing but i sincerely hope you do. Even if you made just one person happy with your waiting writing and staying in AFF i think it is worth it. I pray that you would find the why in all of these... be safe and b3 happy authornim.

flowergirl91 #3 Oct 18, 2018 22:17:23

OMG please don’t cry I don’t know how to comfort someone but please don’t be sad everything is going to be ok

ginger1111 #4 Oct 18, 2018 16:38:06

CHINGU!! Don't make yourself feel bad. You're not. I'm sorry I wasn't chat with you like last time. A lot of things happened. You made amazing stories you wrote, I love reading them. You're the Queen of Angst and Polt twist! Don't give up Chingu. Have faith in yourself. I know it's hard but sooner it will get better. I may not be around much but at least I have time to read and enjoy whatever in life. Be strong and you're amazing. :) hold on Chingu. I don't know what happened, I give you a (ghost) hug... A big one! You're a human with feelings. Whatever happens you're amazing again and again cause you are.I’m praying for you, friend.

omona-mark #5 Oct 18, 2018 16:33:54

Hey! I'm not sure what happened, but after reading this I'd just like to say that I hope you hang in there and gain strength. There are a lot of setbacks that could happen when it comes to writing (I should know, I can't finish anything chaptered for my life) and you may feel like things aren't going great, but I do encourage you to keep writing! Maybe not right away or all at once, but a little goes a long way. Even going back to cancelled fics if you feel like it again or starting a new one despite having a lot on-going just so you can release some stress and creativity. I know you have a lot of beloved fics, since I've designed so much for you, too. I'd love to see more stories from you that I can make posters for, so hang in there! :)