We can't start a list off about people I treasure without looking to the first and only friend I had when I entered Kpop. Mark. or better known here as TinyTitan. 

Mark and I dated for quite some time and during which I learned a lot about myself and was introduced to Kpop, despite having a rather rocky relationship our friendship still holds true to today. We don't get to talk much but I still enjoy his company from time to time. 

Another of my friends from entering the Kpop world is one of my best friends and someone I trust to always tell it to me straight and skip the formalities and tell me how it is to my face. She never sugar coats but is always there to get me back on track. I look to her as if she were my own flesh and blood sister and one day hope to either live with her, or, live close by her. 

Thirdly but deffinitely not third on my mind or my heart - is my current lover, (and last one) and partner, Minbloodxx or as most people know him by now as Sebbie. Sebbie has changed me in so many ways. When I first met him, he was a reader of my stories, and blogs. He never said a word to me. Some stuff went down with friends of mine and my entire support network seemed to disintigrate in front of my eyes. I was so close to ending it all when he messaged me and picked me back up. He taught me who i was and to love myself. He's made it easier for me to look in the mirror and not see a monster. I see potential, beauty, and ultimately now, I'm starting to see my imperfections for things that make me perfect. He is there to hug me and cuddle me when I'm crying, to pin me to the bed and force me to calm down when I need it, he's the best thing since Hailey that has happened to me and emotionally he is the thing keeping me together. My life has improved in so many ways since meeting him, I've dropped a lot of weight, I've gotten healthier, I'm eating less, I'm sleeping better. I don't feel alone anymore. I never feel the need to do 'attention grabbing stunts' just so people notice me. I have my sebbie, my baby, my lover, my Yoongi right there. I don't need anything else. 

Alex and Mia - I have to mention them together because - I never see them appart. We've had a lot of ups and downs but it ultimately comes down to the fact that you two are always there for me when I need it, I enjoy talking to you and giving you advice, you're like my own children and you even call me your adopted Appa, and Sebbie you call Baba (which also means father in another language). I couldn't honestly be sorrounded by better people -- I don't think we'll ever meet face to face -- but you two are always welcome in my discord, in my heart, and in my thoughts. I love both of you as my own children and you put up with me being gone from your life for months while I re-established mine. Thank you so much for understanding and being there for me when I wasn't able to be there for you. It's always such a refresshing sight to roll over and say goodmorning to sebbie and then Check discord and see one of you or both of you on to talk with and talk to. Thank you both. <3

Bebop Chan -- Gosh, I don't remember how we met because I have the memory of a goldfish, but I wouldn't regret a thing. I love that you always talk to me about what is going on in your life and I'm so happy you got a new job. I call you noona because I look up to you and love you as my own family. I invited you to my discord for this reason, I trust you and want you in my inner circle. 

CrystallinePetals  --- If I could, I'd give you my eyes because someone as beautiful as you doesn't deserve to lose the abiilty to see their beautiy. My dear, you're always keeping your eye on me even though during my hiatus I didn't talk to really anyone. I learned my true friends by vanishing for so long, the people who stuck by me- understood why I did what I did, and truely gave me the space I needed -- all of you are so important. You have my discord, because you're invited to my inner circle. I can't wait for when you join. Thank you so much for being there for me when so many others turned away. 

blueblaze -- You still call me hyung and message me here and there, and that makes the world to me. We don't know eachother much but I wouldn't mind getting to know you more. I do hope that college goes well for you and I'm sorry we havn't spoken as much as I had originally planned to do. Thank you for respecting my space and understanding why I took my break, you among many others have made my days truely unforgettale. 

Grackie --- what can I say, you're beautiful and not just in looks. You're one of the reasons I started to recover, and without you I might not have made it this long. Seriously, you saved my life and I can only return the favor. I'd do anything for you and I do mean anything, you have helped me in uncovering who I'm meant to be and helped when I struggled with my eating disorder. I know exactly how we met and I don't regret it one bit. I want to see your recovery too love, and I will always stay by your side. You are like a sister to me and I want the world for you sweetie. I love writing with you when we get time and I'll never forget the memories we created in doing so. Keep loving yourself, and being yourself, you're beautiful, remember that. Don't let society tell you any different. 

debaekyeol --- well, we don't talk much but i do watch over you and see from time to time you message me - I watch your feeds and know you're doing a little better but still just as ty. I really do care about you and wish you the best and you're welcome to reach out to me whenever you feel the need to cry on someones shoulder. You won't burden me. I can make a couple of minutes of time to give you a hug and tell you everything will be better in the end. I really hope that you got diagnosed with gets better love, I hate to see someone so beautiful in so much pain. 

Leoandhyuk ---  Ava, You are still like my own flesh and blood and I worry so much when it comes to your health and welbeing, please take better care of yourself and learn to lvoe yourself for who you are. Your skin is too beautiful for these markings you inflict, and your heart is too fragile for the things you're doing to it. Keep your heart safe and learn to be the best you can be. Don't listen to what other people say negative about you, you're beautiful and that's all that matters. Look up sweetie, the stars are calling your name. You can reach them if you just reach for them. 

Crazylove101 -- you're a butthead but I love you. What more is there to say <3 Nah, I love you lots, you call me hyung because I am like an older brother to you. I LOVE writing togetehr and we share the same crazy mind together xD it's kinda funny. I miss messing around with you on Hangouts, but we're so busy now days. Damn man you need to come onto the damn thing more than once a week so we can BS ! 

_sseoktae_  ---- Hey you, I know we don't talk much but I still remember everything about you, the things you like and don't like, and things that have happened. You always have my back and I'm super appreciative about that. Remember I always have yours too, and I will always be here to guide you just send me a message. Love you kiddo. You're still like my little sibling. 

Kpopjungshook  --- Even after everything you're still important to me, I always make sure your life is going well and I'm so proud that you changed things for the better and truely fixed everything going on in that head of yours. You're such a handsome and beautiful soul lovely. Keep shining and don't resist the urge to contact me if you need to talk or anything. I'm always here for you. 

scarface -- Mel, you and I so rarely talk but every time we do you have my back and you talk to me so openly and support me from the sidelines. I'm glad you don't get yourself in the middle of things anymore, that got you into a lot of trouble lol 

lolipop -- you never get on AFF but you know I'm always here for you You're family. Seriously. Talk to me whenever, don't feel like you're going to pester me. 

Sena -- I love your personality so freaking much you always know what to say ot make me laugh, and your erted nature is amazing. 

Meep --- You are like a mother figure to me - I am always here for you and I know you're always there for me. You have my back no matter what and that is really what makes a true friend. Even when I do stupid , you call me out for it but you stay around and still support me. 

Jae -- You still hold a special place in my heart, i want the best for you and we never talk but you're always welcome to talk to me. 

Rin -- I'm horrible at emailing aren't I, at least I'm back now and you can talk to me here ! I always found it funny that you and Jae fought over talking to me, it was kinda funny. I consider you a sibling of mine because of how much your happiness means to me. Continue to PM me I'll answer eventually XD I am back on AFF but not back 100% I hope everything in your new area is better and that you can learn to find people who are good fro you and don't make you feel bad about yourself. Please reach out to me if you ever need advice <3 

Rain --- Oh Min. God how I love you. Your sassy " you" attitude is literally like you're my damn sibling, blood relation and all. You're an incredible friend and ALWAYS have my back where it counts. Stop letting hoes use you and be s to you, come hang out with me on discord and find some REAL friends <3 

Hyo -- Last but not least, a wonderful friend who is someone I rarely talk to but Hyo your graphics are beautiful, representing how beautiful you are as a person. thank you so much for being a close friend of mine for so long and I'm sorry I don't keep up with people that much, it's hard for me to talk to so many people with so little time, but when it counts i'm always here, just so you know that. Don't hesitate to contact me when you need to talk or anything  I promise I don't bite <3 THank you for always standing by my side and stay awesome and loving. 

LilChimChim -- I'd say I miss you but we talk so often I don't need to say it <3 You are such a big part of my heart and I love your little pictures. <3 stay happy little one. 

Jimminniee -- A good friend and someone I can always smile with. Thank you for understanding why my break was required. 

I have someone I want to list... I think ... Moonflakes? but they changed their user and deactivated, so it's hard to know? 

ANyway, this person is a wonderful writer, beautiful soul, and amazing friend. I love talking to Emma she makes me so happy when I get to. I love reading her stuff when I have time too, I hope she becomes a writier in her real life, she deserves every bit of it. You're increadible Emma, don't let anything dim your shine.