hmmm..8months living her in korea i would say it is hard maybe for because I don't know korean language at all nor I can't even read it.. at first I thought i can learn it slowly by talking some koreans.

at first i was so excited to it i mean learning korean but now I don't know what to say. my couple days here it was okay im just staying in our house since I don't know nothing how they live but same goes I started to noticed even just watching over our veranda i can say how boring (for my poin og view) i see no one means human being lurking around or just by standing so it means i have no one to talk or even just thinking that maybe i can talk to even just a very small hi and hello. i can only see trees, parked car and moving one. I don't even know who are my neighbors ahhm well.. im not good at names but still.

comparing where i came from and here it really.. wht the right word something like overwhelming..everything is so I don't so weird maybe. koreans are so self conscious when it comes to speaking english even though they know and understand. they are so insecure about grammar instead of thinking about it is okay even it is not perfect as long as people understand it but no they don't think that way.

im from philippines i can say people don't care about grammar and i think it is better than nothing. im kinda peraon who learns more through experiencing it i mean learning new language like korean I prefer it through small talks than studying it alone. I don't talk that much so it more difficult for me since koreans don't talk that much to strangers especially to foreigner like me who prefer talking with English language. 

it is really hard for me to adjust to their culture because of language barrier.. and my partner is not really helpful since he is so workaholic and his free time I can't take it for teaching me some korean since it is the only time he can rest. 

and because of it my insecurities in talking it getting more bad since im so worried they might not understand me or something else. this so frustrating.. its my faults too for not trying or giving more time to study their language i have so many excuses like even i learn some people will misunderstood it coz of mispronounce and it is really important to them or else you will be in big trouble. and since I don't go out that much except for grocery time i feel like lazy coz of that and I don't have a friend to talk to.. so I become so lazy. I understand if you feel frustrated alsofor my lame excuses in life.

i will cut it there for now.. can you guys help me out.. i need motivation