Someone just told me that shinee Jonghyun died from suicide. It was a very shocking news and I really wanted to cry but somehow I cannot because of certain circumstances that I was in today. I was just wondering what thoughts that had gone through his mind that he decided to commit suicide.

Basically, Jonghyun is one of my favourite singer in k-pop. I’ve been listening to him since 2009, almost nine years. For me he was a very outstanding singer, a gentle hearted person, he had adorable smiles, a pair of very charming eyes, and a very funny person. He was also outspoken. Honestly it never crossed my mind that Jonghyun would decide to commit suicide. I felt pity for him and of course clearly I did not know his problems. He must had been feeling down for months or maybe years I don’t know.

If in Infinite my favorite pairing is Woogyu, in Shinee my favorite pairing is Jongkey. Now I kept imagining him in the coffin waiting to be buried or cremated I don’t know. I guess I am not going to forget for a long time how his prominent jaw lines and his fantastic voice and his adam’s apple and some veins showing up when he was trying to sing the high note. I kept thinking about the moment when he appeared in weekly idol, hello baby, and other tv shows. He is a very caring member as far as I know.

Today before I heard the news about his death, I somehow decided to watch Shinee’s View and Married to the Music music videos. I still remember his happy face in those videos and how he really enjoyed while dancing to the songs. Owh goddd… I really wanna cry right now.

Earlier this year we lost Chester Bennington. And now we lost another talented musician Kim Jong Hyun. I really hope that he will rest in peace. I also really hope in the future idols would not resort to commit suicide as an escape route from this miserable life. I hope they will get some help and advices if they are feeling down and somehow decide to stay living until the end.

Rest In Peace, My lovely Jonghyun.