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I know I shouldn`t really be saying this here but idc anyway around. I`m 16(well my birthday isn`t over yet but whatever) this year, my family(mostly my parents) ask what do I want to do or be when I grow up. I never really answer their questions, cause I don`t even dare to tell my parents what I actually want to be.
none of my family members know what I want to be, but some of my friends know. some say just follow your dreams, some say just listen to your parents, it`s for the best. i`m turning 17 next year and I only have a little time to be in collage, I still don`t know how to tell my parents that... their daughter wants to be something they`ll never agree to.
maybe I`ll end up like Suga just not the part where my parents support me. If you`re asking whether my dream is to be an idol? yes, yes it is. I never think that i have the looks, vocals or any talent for that but some of my friends say i have. but that doesn`t mean i think i have any talent for that, i think i have zero talent for that. i want to learn music and maybe compose my own first song but...i never really learn anything about music, so even i have the lyrics and the rhythm in my head i can`t do anything further than that.
i wanted to try and go for an audition but i didn`t get the reply so i couldn`t go and i don`t live in korea. and i know if i tell my mom about this, she`ll laugh at me and then do anything she can to just...idk...but so far...they`ll do anything to stop me, i know it`s for my own good but idk what i want to do or be.
i study chem, phy, add maths, accounts but...tbh i know i won`t be using them when i first started. i did told my friends maybe i could just be like Suga and leave home but at least he lives in korea, it`ll be much more easier.
should i give up on this and follow what my parents tells me or idk disobey my parents, being disowned(maybe) and follow my dreams?
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