I need an honest opinion.
Hi, love.
I've been thinking about this for months.
I have my current job now. I've been here for almost two years.
There are happy times, yes. But mostly im just given stress. My work is completely underappreciated.
They have this mentality where they wouldnt give a if you've done right but would give you hell for a single petty thing you've done wrong.
I barely got late. My absences could be counted by my own fingers. I have a clean track record. I never disobeyed anything they wanted me to do even though mostly it's out of my job description.
I act like a complete servant. And based on my observation, majority of the things my superior pointed out to me which she said were the reasons im having low evaluations werent even part of my job.
I've been doing things way beyond my JD and they've been pushing me to do more and give more effort whilst the fact that my salary isn't even big enough for me to actually save up for myself. But they've been trying to give me this idea that i kinda owe them for smallest of things that actually benefited me and that i still owe the company for things that 'i've learned' and that it's not always about the money.
Also, for months i've wanted to submit that piece of paper that would end all of my problems that affect my mental and emotional health. (They usually gave out words that not everyone could handle. Most of it really hurts). But i do also think about my bills, other possibilities, and especially my responsibilities in the company. Who'd fill them out if ever i leave?
But mostly because they seem to know how to make the person feel bad about their own actions because they make us think we owe everything to them and things are quite different there.
I know the things i've actually listed down are mostly, if not all negative. But i did build relationships there. I'm friends with some of the managers, supervisors and am quite friendly with everyone.
So i dont know if i'd just choose to set myself and my emotional health free or just stay here and be able to support myself. Because even though there are -tons of companies out there, we all know how difficult it os to actually get a job.
But i dont really know what's stopping me. I'm just physically and emotionally drained i want to end it. 😑
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