you know how you're all sad and lonely but hate it and want to make friends?? but you can't because when you are able to start some type of relationship, people see that you're a big who doesn't know how to hold things back and doesn' try to alter their opinions for other people???? and in turn those people leave and stop socializing with you because you aren't fake and don't try to pretend to be exactly like them??? so you're really just this big who can't maintain relatonships because you don't have the same thoughts, opinions, or interests as everyone around you seems to have?? or maybe that's just me. maybe i need to just become this super fake person because people can't handle the real me.