Yesterday's blog was a bit of a mess to be honest. I'm an emotional wreck and currently have anxiety spiking higher than ever, and I don't even know why and it all honestly and I just hate everything.

But I was very serious when I said I no longer want to write on AFF. I don't know why, but it just feels...

Maybe I do know why.

It feels like I'm trapped in a pit of BTS , and that's all people who read my stories come for anymore. 90% of the comments I get now are on those rated M fics (mostly with Jimin) asking me to update, when I've stated over and over that I'm taking things slow with those stories now because I just... I can't do it anymore. I don't want to be defined by the ty words that I've put on this site for a group that makes my heart ache thinking about, and that I'll probably never get over with that feeling. But, I just can't get away. It's great that you guys love my writing... but when it gets to this point, it honestly makes you wonder if the people reading who say they love your writing are clouded by the fact that they love the they're reading and the thrill it gives them, and that it has nothing actually to do with my writing.

I don't want to be defined by BTS . I know that's where I gained some of the popularity my stories have from, but... it's not all there is to me, yet it's all that some people seem to see and it's so discouraging to me as a writer. It's why I've struggled so much to continue writing consistently and happily since I posted Fifty Shades of Jimin.

Why do so many of you only look at my fics because of the ? And don't get upset with me saying that, because if that's not the case, not commenting to share how you actually feel and being a silent reader, or commenting to just say "update" or to say "it's hot" doesn't make me think otherwise.

I need a change.

A fresh start, and that's why I no longer want to post on AFF... at least not for a while. Because it makes me feel like I'm suffocating.

I'm really sorry to those of you who do actually enjoy my writing for that sole reason, and not because of the and who's the star in it. I just... can't do it anymore. I'm not opposed to writing , and I'm not opposed to writing BTS, or Jimin, but I hate that feels like one of my only worth's on this site now.

I hope that those of you who do support me for my writing style will support me in decision, and follow me to other places I choose to write on from now on. I'm trying to do it on multiple other platforms, so those of you on here won't be limited to something that you may not have. I know some of you have wattpad, I know some of you have AO3, and I know a lot of you probably have a tumblr, so I'll be posting stuff on there.

As for my mature BTS fics... no I won't stop writing those, but I ask that those of you who follow me when I post them on other sites will be patient as I figure myself out in all of this. I chose to write those stories for the plot, and I personally want to finish them because I love them, but it's going to be a slow ride as I get pass this inner turmoil I've been having about them.

It's going to take me a while to upload everything from this site onto the other sites, but I will do my best to be dilligent about it. Each story will remain on AFF until I have it caught up to the point of where it is here, on those sites, and then I will put in draft mode, in the event that I one day return to sharing on here.

I will be putting more of a focus on Seventeen and NCT fics, but I won't stop writing for BTS. It's just that, right now, Seventeen and NCT is what comes easy to me to write, and what puts my heart at ease and I know that writing more of those will eventually help me to be able to write like I used to, for BTS again as well. I'll make the announcement on each story as I'm going through the process, but for now TDS and T7S are already on Wattpad and AO3, and I've posted TDS to tumblr as well. And The First Shade of Fifty Shades of Jimin is now on Wattpad, as per request from a reader on that site. Links are below. If you guys want to continue reading these stories, then you'll have to follow me on those sites for updates. Below I will list where everything will be. All of it should be going on Wattpad and AO3 and some of it will go on Tumblr, as well.

Fifty Shades of Jimin - Wattpad (link), AO3 (soon)
Am I Wrong? - Wattpad (soon), AO3 (soon)
52. - Wattpad (soon), AO3 (soon)
What Am I To You? - Wattpad (link), AO3 (soon)
Delivery - Wattpad (soon), AO3 (soon), tumblr (soon)

The Devil's Sons - Wattpad (link), AO3 (link), tumblr (link)
The 7th Sense - Wattpad (link), AO3 (link), tumblr (soon)

Links to all of my profiles so you can follow and get updates as to when I post all of these stories are here:
Wattpad - HeadToToesLove (link)
AO3 - kaikumin (link)
Tumblr - kaikumin (link)

I will be taking requests on my tumblr for scenarios and oneshots, for Seventeen, BTS, NCT, Exo, B.A.P and Pentagon (maybe more, feel free to ask and I'll let you know if I can have it done or not). You can submit anonymously, and non-will be rejected unless I am unfamiliar with the group or it's a topic that I'm absolutely against writing (like mpreg). idolxidol is allowed, but not , please. Original character is also allowed, and I don't mind making it a little and , within reason (although I am trying to stray from that a tiny bit to get my head together).

To be honest... it'd just be nice to know I have support in doing this, too, even if you don't plan to follow me on these other sites, well-wishes would be nice cause I'm in a bit of a dark place right now.

Thank you guys for being as understanding as you have been thus far, and I really hope I do get to see you on these other sites (if you follow from here, hmu and I'll follow back)

-Kai