Note to myself : 

Hello myself. How are you today? Still worrying? Sigh. Listen girl. You can think about your future. Perhaps, you should think carefully about it. But, dont think or worry too much until it prevent you from enjoying your time and living yourlife to the fullest. Always grateful with every second you had. Because it will never come back. Its precious! 

Look! Good and bad things will always happens because thats the only way we can learn something in life. You will never learn anything if you did not get out from your cage and see the world. Yes, you may feel anxious. Anxiety will filling your soul. You may get stress because of all thoughts will come to your mind. You will act awkward. You afraid about what will happen or what will come next to you. But, dont you want it? To be free from your own cage? To make your own step? Even its a baby step, but still you making progress. And its already amazing. Not to everyone because they dont know about you. But to yourself, its amazing! 

Please! I want to be happy and experience things. I dont want to always sit here everyday and worry about everything. Everything that i dont know if it ever happens or not. Maybe some of it will happens. But, we cant control it. Everything happens for a reasons. Then, there must be a reasons why bad things happens to you. Stop avoiding! It will never solve anything! That kind of mindset you should change it. You know how strong you are. You have win before. But, why is that make you afraid to face the world? To take the challange? 

Dear heart. I know you tired with all of this. I know you have hurt so many times. But, dont make me like this. Please dont turn me to be like this. I know you can do it! I know we can do it! So please open your door and lets do this together. We had win before and we can win this again, together! 

Dear myself. Lets be free and be happy again. 

I love you. =) 
You can do it! Fighting!