i figured it would be a good discussion to talk about the people i've encountered on here, with more of a focus for the collabing community (because hello if you're a stalking writer who'd take something personally from this and get triggered even if i don't even know you then feel free to click out because i'm talking about the people i sing with okay) and to talk about if i've ever felt annoyed being in this community. 

y'all i'm not gonna expose who i hate on AFF because y'know getting me to hate a person takes a lot so i only have like a select few that i really can't talk to at all.

but does that mean i like every person i've met excluding those people? of course not.

i'm not trying to be mean here, don't get me wrong, i'm not some special snowflake or anything but it would be a lie if i said i never gotten really irritated by people here before, even if we could be like the best of friends or if i talk/had talked to you regularly LOL. if someone can say that they've genuinely never been annoyed by anyone here at all before, you'd be a saint quite honestly. or you might not be talking to that many people in the community LMAO.

but should you feel worried or mad over that? i really don't think so.

being annoyed at someone doesn't mean i'll hate you instantly and that i'll never get over it. i've gotten annoyed with lots of people over stuff, and by the next day, i don't even care about it anymore. of course, there are some cases where i just get really annoyed to the point where i actually do not want to talk to someone anymore, but for the most part on here, it's never that serious.

the thing i get annoyed over a lot tho is that i feel like people can't seem to handle something negatively said. not just on here, but just in life in general, but i'm focusing on here. i get annoyed over how i can't say the entire truth over something and that the fact that it could come across as being negative would get people heated.

take collabs for example. literally EVERYBODY sugarcoats their comments, myself included. like of course, there are boundaries you have to keep, but say you're listening to a collab and there's this one (or more) really bad singer. like, goes completely off key sometimes or you don't know what the heck they're saying, they don't suit the part, and etc. but there's never anyone to say that directly because you're afraid that there are people that are gonna be offended and be like "it's all for fun and you should appreciate the hard work that was put into the collab!"

like yeah, i understand that people put in work for the collab and that this isn't anything serious, but is it really that bad to say that you just didn't seem to pull off your part?

so instead you're subjected to saying something like, "i don't think your voice really suited the part because some notes were off and you ended up sounding weak but you still did a great job!! <3" sugarcoating for the rest of your life.

is it so bad to say opinions now? a few days ago, the first comment i got from my first blog where i answered something from my sarahah ended with "some people might not take this as a good opinion but it's my opinion," as if she was expecting having someone to object with what she said and become defensive. i think that people shouldn't have to say that they're sorry for being harsh or for having an opinion at all, since they're saying it so that you can know what others think also.

of course, we should express it respectfully, but doing it respectfully doesn't necessarily mean to sugarcoat everything. We should at least be able to take things directly as they are, and if that's a problem for you, then you're better off not doing anything for other people to witness, especially when it's on the internet. Like, people on the internet can really say some harsh crap sometimes, but i think it's better to get that instead of getting your friends trying to kiss up to your .

but will i really look down at people that do this? nah. people want to be nice so that they can keep their image on here clean and don't have to deal with anything like that. it's understandable. there are plenty of other stuff that make me annoyed in the community also that are kinda like this type of stuff, but i never really think i'd try and get myself away from them because of it. earlier i said that yeah, there are people that i hate on AFF (and where the feeling's mutual towards me also lmao), but it's not because of any of these reasons, so it's nothing to worry about.

to end the blog, i'll answer someone who sent something in my sarahah: I'm sure that whoever sent me this didn't quite expect that i'd go off on a tangent, but you were worried that i was mad at you when i have no idea at all who you are and it seemed like you didn't wanna tell me directly about it and then it led me to talk about something that was like loosely related LOL i'm sorry but really tho you should message me and be upfront because i don't want you feeling like that :D