short but much-needed rant plz forgive me saranghae
im sorry for being such a disappointment.
i know you secretly look at others and envy them for sending their children to such prestigious schools, whatever they may be. i know you wished for a daughter that would be first in her class and rise to the top with a respectable career. i know you wanted all of these things, and in the midst of this, you try to be happy.
sometimes your smile is full of such disappointment and disgust that even a clueless person like me can see it.
i just wanted to say that im sorry for not being everything that you wanted.
im fully human and nothing more than that. i cannot be perfection no matter how much you will it.
and you have a strong will.
don't tire yourself out wishing for these things. please just accept me as i am. im going to college for free, why can't you celebrate? im tired after 6 months of auditions, why can't you treat me well? im working hard to try in school, why can't you encourage me? is everything i do really a disappointment to you, then tell me straight up and don't sugarcoat anymore. one moment you're happy for me and my accomplishments, and the next moment, you're punishing me for something i didn't even do or say.
tell me because im done with this bull of a time im having here trying to figure out what you want.
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