Aaaw, you literally just explained me all in one blog post. I've been slowly pulling away from BTS all together and I FXXKING HATE IT!?! uuuugh. Like, I used to have small panic attacks and I'd cry for hours on end until I'd lift my phone and type up "BTS Funny Moment" videos, to cheer me up, wipe my tears, ya know? All that blah blah blah. But the biggest panic attack I ever had, like trouble breathing, trouble opening my eyes, trouble concentrating on anything, all those kinds of troubles, not once did I even consider watching them. Now I'm telling you, BTS was my go-to group, the videos that made me smile were only of them- performing, smiling, laughing, even crying, you name it. They just cheered me up.
KPop really, was the world I went to whenever things were tough and for the past 5 years, nothing in real life has changed. Nothing. Only the ages of the people around me. And I went through the phase of liking EXO then found BTS, I was way out of the EXO phase, looking for a new world to enter and yeah, for 3 and a half years, that new world was BTS bc EXO grew in terms of popularity. I couldn't relate to them anymore, they slowed down their appearances on programmes, they were losing people. When Kris left, I cried. When Luhan left, I cried harder and then Baekhyun got a gf, Tao left, omg...I was just a baby! I couldn't stop crying like, it sounds dramatic but when you follow something wholeheartedly, and all of a sudden there are huge changes, it really does affect you in a way that no one will really understand or comprehend so for me, BTS' growing popularity kind of worries me bc I feel like it'll be deja vu, excluding the whole members leaving part.

My ideas are all over the place but what I'm trying to say is I agree with you, in saying that their popularity ( continuously growing) is a little unsettling. I'm not one to conform easily to change and yeah, we'll still love them and everything but it really does feel like they'll be further from us (or me). Like, if I can't rely on them to make me happy, who or what can? Uuuugh, this comment is so over the fxxking place, it's actually frustrating me ><

I just wanna say though that, yours and Haru's fics actually helped me A LOT to continue following BTS like I'd be waiting for an update from you two while watching a video of them or listening to their songs? Idk. When I got sick of watching them, I'd read your fics...idek where I'm going with this BUT I just want to say that you should really do what you want! Take a break, relax, listen to NCT or SVT or anyone, do it. Bc when BTS comes back again, you know you won't be able to stay away from them. Maybe you won't adore them as much as you used to, so what? You'll still love them and their music. You'll still follow them unknowingly bc that's what you do, that's what you've done and you won't realise it until that moment passed. I still don't know wtf I'm saying. I'm actually stalling from writing my 1000 word essay, due in 2 days, worth 10% of my grades for the class and well, I'm guessing this comment is close to 500 words XD ffs.
Okay, I'll leave my useless and unformatted comment here, please ignore the laziness and hectic, annoyingly placed words, sentences etc. I'm so over uni work and I'm legit only 3 weeks in.

There are quite a few of ARMYs out there who are scared because of BTS' rising popularity. But I genuinely think that it's nothing to worry about. I think BTS is the group least likely to change because of popularity. And I get that your insecurity comes from not wanting to betray yourself and them by not being their hardcore fan anymore. But BTS is never going to change bc they've literally been the same dorks since debut. If you're starting to lose trust in something that's been with you for years ... it's hard, but it's okay! Just spend a bit of time being yourself and youself only! ^^

Awwwwwwww its okayy... *hugs* take ur time kayy?