I'm baaack hehe been busy this lately w working & stuff. so i got an email from nursing school that i got accepted for interview wuhuuu on this 8th april. surely I am super excited tho but... kinda mixed feelings. for those who reads my previous previous blog, mybe u can relate this post w my another post abt envy bij. i heard that my USED to be bestfriend got accepted too. yesh i do happy for her, u know, i made a promise that i wouldnt want to surround myself or with someone who hurt me emotionally & spread negative vibes. 

Its not like i am worried about her, its more like i worried abt myself. the fear of involving or get influence by negative ppl as for me is too dangerous. i become more defensive & protecting abt me. it is ok if she was not the same class w me, but to be in the same class.. i am afraid that she's the factor of my distraction. do u get my point? it may sound that i am abit too cruel, thats the truth. i want to get rid off negative ppl 100% bc nobody can block my way towards my goals. what i am aiming for. that i rlly want to achieve

I knew her too well, OBVIOUSLY LEGIT ing well. for a second i feel like i want to change my course to Assistant dental, bc of it. i do not want any distraction. i want to focus towards my future ahead. I am more concerned abt my future than anything. but at the same time, i need to think. why would i shud change my course whereas nursing is my dream job? i need to confront this. idk how to describe & i wudnt be able to put it into words. only god knows how i really feel. 

my plan is to focus on my career & avoid stupid ppl. 

I am so sorry, I am getting emotional. hopefully that i dont get in the same class w her & get high score during my 2 yrs course of nursing!! 

positive vibes lol!!

am i a bad person tho? :(