Am i a failure?

so disappointed that i couldnt feel anything, like i dont know how to react. seriously

i was having my driving test earlier, everything was ok & smooth then.. BUMP! (no thats not what u think, no accident occur) i slightly went up to stable & i know that right away that, "I'm going to be failed." i passed my parking skills & go to uphill if thats what it called? bcus of one mistake, and my nervousness.. the entirely become, no u failed . do u get what i mean? 

when i ended my driving test, and yeahh the result was F due to that 1 careless mistake. everyone has higher expectation on me that i got passed. i mean, idk gurl.. i want to let this burden off my chest out. i cant talk to anyone, everyone asking me if got pass and i choked. I was trying to hold up, the tears back. i dont want to cry in front of the public.. i rlly hate embarassing moment. seriously

it hurts u know, when ppl try to calm me. give soothing words but kennot? I'm trying to be positve and everything. i just dont know.

i couldnt express how i feel to anyone, and it s. bcus i dont need someone sympathy. everyone got passed while me? ;_; got isolated but its not, i just cant..

i got postponed not to take driving test for 2months, another heart breaker 3 

is it wrong to feel hurt bcus of this? feel horrible? feel the urge to cry? 

idk, wanting to blame myself? blaming who ever it is? like idk. i am completely dont know what to feel. i want someone to understand me. not someone who gives me a sugarcoated words. myb i am just too dramatic, but i dont want to be a burden to my parents like send me to college every single day, that took 1 hr to reach.

btw i learned driving for 10 hrs, 1 hr for 1 day.. depends on ur availability

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seunghoangel #1
my friend, na chingu. I'm happy that you are finally back here on AF, I missed your blog and all the advice i can give. I pretty much understand what you mean by that. Yes, everyone wanted you to passed, but in reality things are not what they seems. You are not alone on that, alot of people fail on their first try at driving, some are lucky enough to passed it. I was lucky enough to passed my driving test, on a second try. I fail my first and I thought that I failed my parents. But to be honest if you try hard enough and believed in yourself. Things will placed itself the way you wanted them to be. Just keep trying and never give up. Yes, it was nice to take that burden away from your parents, driving you to school everyday, but I'm sure that part of them wanted that to make sure that you are safe on your destination. I have some good and bad experience on driving. I made mistakes, we are only human, but that mistakes made us the better version of ourselves. AND NO, YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE!!!!!!!! it's disappointing not to do a better job on the first try but once you try again, the result is much more rewarding, believe me. Everyone go thru this. Bang Yongguk failed his driving test so many times and he never give up until recently he got his license and now he drives a scooter. There are alot of people, even celebrities fail on their driving test, you are not alone on this, my friend. Just believed at yourself and practice until you are fully ready to take that driving test for the second time. CHINGU!!!FIGHTING!!! ^_^
boy1a4 #2
you're not a failure. mistakes happen and you just have to practice and re-learn. it . waiting so what i usually do is try to get my mind off of it by doing sonething else or practicing some more until i'm truly confident enough to do well. jisung from wanna one actually just failed his driving lesson too. you are not alone. i will be cheering for the both of you!
sleepingprince #3
It's okay to fail. It's not the end of everything. You failed because you needed more practice. Sometimes to think of it , in other sense , it's to protect you from danger when you are not ready . Everything happens for a reason. Do you think everyone that passed can actually drive well and are an ethical driver ? The answer is no. Also even if you passed , you'll still need to practice more since driving school and driving outside is two different thing. To me , sometimes failing means growth . Don't feel too bad. You can always try again.
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