Sorry for how messy and unorganized this may seem, and for any typos. I've honestly just written all of this to let this out, because im so conflicted and torn rn.

Okay, to be honest, to most it may not be that big of deal, especially since Ive claimed three members as my main biases this whole time, and they were all pretty equal to each other. BUT, whenever push came to shove, and I had to choose one, I've been saying Jimin.

Let me just give you a little run down of how my bias list has gone since BTS became my main bias group, back in 2014 (although this kinda dates back to 2013 as well?)

I am a er for dancers, rappers and members with crisp black hair. I tend to go more for dancers, just... naturally(?), but rappers hold a special place as well ( Jung Hoseok for being both, and doing it so well).

Starting from No More Dream, Jimin and Suga both immediately caught my eye. Jimin was just so pretty and Suga was just so... Bleh. Both had dark hair, and I don't usually go for the 'best bod' type, but we're all lying to ourselves if we say Jimin's abs don't make us squeal and blush fifty shades of red. So basically, at that point it was those two. I didn't actually get into the group, until O!RUL8,2? and AHJUMMA YOONGI STOLE MY HEART. He was so cute, and I lost it.

Min Suga was my very first bias in BTS. The number 1, my First Love (jesus, that's a painful pun for his solo song. Was that a sign???)

Now, fast forward to Skool Luv Affair. That was when BTS became one of my top groups, probably number 2 after Exo and when I truly decided I was a huge fan of them. I listened on and off to their music, but Boy In Luv is what go me to be BTS trash, officially. And that was Jimin started to wreck everything.

It was from then on, that I claimed both Yoongi and Jimin as my biases, tied for first, though if I had to choose one for a question, it would've been Yoongi the majority of the time. Now, fast forward again to the Danger era.

ME THIS IS WHEN JUNG HOSEOK RANDOMLY POPPED UP LIKE " I RAP AND DANCE, AND IM YOUR HOPE, LOVE ME!" And, he became a wrecker. Danger era, to this day, remains my favorite Jhope era. Especailly the Japanese branch off, for it cause that's my favorite hair style for him.

So, at that point, it was Jimin and Yoongi, tied for first and Jhope as a solid second. Danger era was also when BTS became my bias group, over all other groups.

Now we can fast forward again to when I joined AFF and wrote my first fic. I remember in the process of planning it, Jimin was supposed to end up with the OC, but magically, when I started writing, Yoongi became the main, and bam, Let Me Know Where Your Heart Belongs was born.

During that period of time, my feelings for Jimin grew, and I think at some point, I started picking him over Yoongi if asked if I had to pick one.

Now, that got wrecked, come February 2015, when I started writing my Hoseok fic, cause he was wrecking my feels so freaking much. It was at some point between then and the first HYYH comeback that I made Hoseok my main bias, even over Jimin and Yoongi. I remember being so upset about it. I was beyond conflicted, and it was just as hard for me to accept as what I'm trying to accept now is.

That Hoseok phase did not last long however. He IS still considered a number one now (I have three tied for Number one and Kookie is in second place). But from the summer of 2015 until recently, I went back to claiming Jimin as the 'one'. 

But, a realization has come to me in the last few months. I've began wondering if... Yoongi was my UB this entire time, and I was just consistently getting wrecked by Jimin and Hoseok. My Jimin and Hoseok feels fluctuate, but the feelings I've from Yoongi have never lessened, persay. And for whatever reason, I've always caught myself looking at Yoongi first in MV and on the dvds and variety shows.

I told my friend that, and she said it was probably just because I was drawn to him, and he's special.

But then I told her, if he's special, shouldn't that make him the UB?

And when I started thinking about it more and more, I realized, the majority of the fics I have planned, are with Yoongi as the main. These fics date all the way back to early 2015. So, for two years, even during times in which I've claimed someone else as a bias, I've still felt more drawn to write about Yoongi.

And then yesterday, I was looking through my photogallery, and I've saved more pictures of Yoongi? I don't know. I've been incredibly conflicted over this.

Like, what if I've been lying to myself this entire time, or rather, I've been wrong about who the UB is? What if all along, it's been Min Yoongi, for whom my feelings havent changed for, and the others were just fluctuations in feelings that eventually lessen and then regain momentum every once in a while?

Does that make Min Yoongi my true bias this entire time?

I mean, at the end of the day, I'll still claim those three as my number one biases, but out of those three.. who's my true bias?

JESUS LORD HELP ME!