So, today we -aka the students at the school I am enrolling- walked around on the school looking at different presentations for what subject we want to take next year. Since geography and some other ty subjects aren't next year, we have to choose at least 3 other things we want. And one what I want is Latin.

And when I told my mother this she said it wouldn't be necessary to learn it. If you feel like you have been in this situation where you had to listen to someone else just because "they are older and have lived longer." That doesn't mean that they have the right to choose for you. 

For this, Latin is hard. At the year of 2013 I started to learn new languages in school. I could choose between French, German and Spanish. I chose Spanish just so I could speak an language no one else in the house could. My mother knows German and my father Italian and guess what. I at it, but as my sister started to learn it; she got the highest grades and suddenly she was the one whom could speak more language than any of us in the house. I am the youngest in our house but still, that doesn't mean I can't learn something non in the house know. I want to learn Latin, and they can't stop me. 

Seeing how perfect my sister does breaks my heart, but Spanish are based on Latin. I want to learn something new. I don't ing care if there is nobody else who speaks Latin nor I would ever need to use it but does that mean I can't learn it? ing no. I never did any good in Spanish, my motivation was to learn my mother Spanish so we could talk in privacy, but guess what, my sister came and learned it perfectly and now they have inside jokes and speaks in Spanish together. What I wanted was German but again she said it was too complicated. 

I have huge problems with learning, even basic skills. I have something called ADHD which makes it harder for me to concentrate and it takes more effort to learn. BUT I DON'T ING CARE.

Just an simple illness I am born with! That doesn't change me as a human! I am able to learn everything as long as I really want to! All I need is just to use a little more time on the tasks. Just an simple illness I am born with doesn't make me unable to do or learn like everybody else. I am a human too, there is nothing wrong with me other than I just need a little time, all I need is a chance, the motivation, the books and paper to write and to study. If I need help my teacher will help!

What my parents thinks of this doesn't mean anything to me! That is just their point of view of what I chose, if I want this then I'll fight and success! There is nothing wrong with me, I just need some time to understand it. It's not worse than that for sake. 

I don't need their support, I don't need them to chose all of my choices. It is my life, my future and it is something I want! If it is hard to learn then it just means that I need to work harder. 

What my support is is nevermind and agust D, or any kpop songs at all. They motivates me when my parents doesn't believe or say that it is too hard for me. 

Becoming an idol is ing hard, but suga did it. If Suga can do it then I can do it! There is no need for me to listen to other people who tells me to do the opposite from what I really want. If I want to learn Latin then I'll ing do it! It is even a school subject which mean it is connected to school. And I do need to choose something, and the other was nothing for me. 

My point is actually that there is always possible. Whatever it is, I am able to do it. I have the right to make my own choices. What other people say doesn't mean a to what you should chose. They are only giving me advises that it is too hard but is it impossible to learn Latin even if I have problems with learning? NO! I just need time. I don't need someone to support me, I have my music!

Shout out to Suga who makes me stay strong <3 I really love you