okay, I might have said it before but for me I can never say it enough; I love my Saviours. To be honest I thought SMFT would just be another one of those plots about character being bullied and someone comes and saves him, that it would just be about 5-8 chapters and was finished and done after 3 months but the plans changed completely. Bullying, starvation, suicide and all those topics, took me 3 years to get the characters together and it ain't even done yet, 27 updates this far, 3 years. I never knew it would be like this. 

And don't think of it as a negative thing, I am still struggling with realizing how far SMFT have gotten. Do saviours even know how PROUD I am to have something to call you? I don't say readers but Saviours, I have "fans" (I don't know if you're actually a fan or a saviour but it's still big for me cx ), someone call me their rolemodel (you know who you are, sweetheart cx) 

but no, seriously. I just wanted to say thank you. I wanna thank every single saviours for getting me this far, you must be my biggest motivation in life. Because, when I got my traumas from the surgery I was really sad about it and I felt like giving up on everything and just drop out of school because I was too afraid to leave the house. The surgery really changed me, I know that I wouldn't get rid of it and that made me broken and it was hard to get up in the morning and falling asleep at night. 

But it also made me realise some things. Even if I will have traumas for who knows how long, I knew that I couldn't stop doing what I really loved to do; to write. Since it is SMFT that is my greatest work and what I am most proud of to have done in my whole life. 

let's not forget all of my Saviours who I hold so dear. it's because of them that made me start writing again, even if it wasn't as good as when I wasn't sick. But I knew that I couldn't disappoint, and that if someone had to update the story; it was me. nobody else writes on Save me from this (besides Unnie who corrects the grammar) and you wouldn't find it anywhere else. I am amanda_kookie, the author of SMFT, the one who used three years on getting where she was now. I couldn't give up and let someone else write a book that I have started. if someone is going to finish save me from this, it is me. 

damn I feel selfish but I just had the self-esteem to really work hard and update because if there's something that would make my future and dreams possible, and motivate me, it is my one and only Saviours. if I want to an author well then I'll just need to write, and I wanna write because my dream is that one day in just 2 years; saviours will be able to read Save me from this without WiFi or data. how? because SMFT would be in a read book form. 

I spoke about it with Ann, cus' she asked me what the fanfic is about and I told about the topics. 

I also told her about my Saviours. Because what will I do when I have sold the amount of copies that I'm "famous"? well, I am going to travel around and have book signing. and I wanna travel around because I want to meet those who have helped me to get as far as I might do, I wanna say thank you face to face, take pictures, hugs and those stuffs. Because saviours have done so much to me. I would be on social media (I am now, it's perfectpoision0 on intagram. I often posts :3 lol finally you can see the mess the author behind smft is cx) so they would be able to contact me and I'll answer. 

why? because they are a part of me. if I ever get famous it's because of Saviours, all those people who sits behind a screen and reads the words I have written. 

and I would make sure I am a good 'role model' (idk, am I already one? and if I am, why? XD) and not do drugs, I am not going to get into trouble or doing bad things. why? because I wanna be a good example and role model. and if I am a role model I feel like I have this responsibility to be a good one and be there for everyone, I wouldn't do anything stupid or leave saviours behind, and I'll always stay positive. I am kinda like that now, aren't I? 

well anyway, thank you. thank you so much for being with me. thank you all of you ;-; thank you for being my Saviours and reading my stories. thank you for waiting for the updates. you are so important to me and the only thing that made me write again is that you all supported me. 

I love you so much you don't even know, please look forward to me coming to your country in the future so I can finally say thanks and finally meet my lovely saviours. I am crying just by thinking about it, can't I just skip the time and just have the book signing now?? and the only reason I am so sure about that I'll be that famous is because all the love and support I get from Saviours ❤💛💚💞💛💖💝❣❤💜❤💓💘

but who are even looking up to me?? lol WHY are you even looking up to me like I once took the wrong bus from the country side and ended up in the country I was in's capital by accident and it was like 2-3 hours one way. and today I was so lost I thoughts I ACCIDENTLY threw my hair brush in the toilet (don't worry, it wasn't anything in there cx) 

but for real. am I even a role model to someone here? and then, WHY are you making such a bad decicions? lol just kidding, it's up to you who's your rolemodel. 

lots of lots of lots of lots of lots of love from author 💗 again follow me on Instagram: perfectpoision0 

I answer any dm' s but I am not the type to send photos of myself sorry saviours xnx but dm but please ask if I am Amanda looks since last time I ACCIDENTLY gave the wrong username OPS