everything is just seems so pointless 
life seems so pointless
there's no true purpose for my existence
i look around at all these other people who are so happy with their lives
they have these amazing friends and relationships with people
they can get and keep them so easily
i think i make a friend or form a new meaningful relationship
but it turns out to just be some illusions 
one day they just decide to stop talking to me and we become strangers
even if i try to talk to and rekindle the friendship, it seems that they typically don't want
i get ignored and treated like i'm weird and something's wrong with me 
but i guess that technically is true, there's a lot wrong with me 
it's been years since i've actually had someone i could really consider a friend 
everyone seems so satisfied and content with their life
they know what they want to do and where they want to go
and i think i have some idea, but it seems somewhat unrealistic
i don't see the point of going on a lot of the time and i don't know why i continue to
i guess i just have some little hope that things will change and get better
but i've been saying and hoping that for years 
nothing will ever change, i'll always be alone