GODDESS | FAITH | GODDESS
Positive: Hardworking, Caring, Bright, All smiles attitude, Happy virus, Humble
Neutral: Childish, Sappy, Observer
Negative: Trying hard, inferior, pessimist, insecure, perfectionist, emotional, fearful
►Being the oldest in her family, she's a little bit mature and motherly(or so, fatherly). She'll always be the one to gather everyone to help the leader, she'll also be the one to reprimand those dongsaengs when they're acting not so good. Growing up under his Father's care, she sometimes emits that prosecutor aura wherein she will raise her voice and will always argue with someone when she thinks she is right, regardless of whom she is fighhting with (however, still with respect.) She wants everything to be fair.
Living with a strict household, she's a little bit introverted and awkward towards other people. But when she's with someone comfortable with, it's either she'll annoy that person, do silly things to make them happy, or nagged them and telling them straight to the point what's wrong with them. She preserved yet very much the noisiest and out-going person with her friends.
She's the type to silently sit beside someone who's crying, knowing that it's best to respect theor privacy rather than asking them to open up with her. And when someone asks her advice, which always happends a lot, she'll give lessons and made them cheer up as she boosts her friends moral. But the tragic thing was, even how she was good at advicing and making others smile, she couldn’t make it to herself. Irony has it as she's also the one who has the most problematic life with messed up personality in which she tends to devalue herself more which causes her to be depressed and cry withone other's knowing it. And as she cry, every bitter memories will eat her up, resulting to sudden breakdown and after it, she'll no longer remember why she'd cried hard— that's how her mental defense works in order to keep her in sane. Without her mother by her hodes, she feels alone and empty— feeling that she’s lonely and being uncared for. And having small group of friends doesn’t help her.
She's great pretender thinking that no one, ever herself, understands her.
► She's beautiful, inside out. 4d, dorky and genius, being a type AB means she's either a genius or a foolish person. She's intelligent, yet her childish attitude makes her a cute fluff ball of sunshine that gives smiles to others. Everyone says she's pretty, but she'll always take it down because of she being down to earth, and because she couldn't intake all the praises she's receiving (she thinks she's only average). She couldn't see her good points yet she tends to bring out every positivity she has to make everyone happy and her sulky, low esteemed self.
And that depression even affects her studies, causing him to graduate having the second place, much to her father's dismay. She feared her father so much that she can't face him as she talk to him over the phone. Knowing that she and her father isn't on the right terms, she immediately went to Seoul to freshen her mind even a bit, as what Namjoon, his another very talented friend had offered. She thinks that maybe, she needs a little rest from all the burdens she had carry. She thought that now, she's useless, even dropping the aspect, academics, she's only good at. And as tries to find herself, she was scouted— by some sort of unknown agency— to audition. She first laughed, thinking she's only been scammed and gently turned down the offer. Yet, the girl seems to be serious, making her think twice and ask God if this is a big break, or another failure.
✩ She at cooking
✩ Accident-prone and she's really waek when it comes to directions/going to certain places alone
✩ She talks fast and uses old words taht are usually used by aged koreans.
✩ She has fast metabolism, she doesn't know why she can't gain weight yet she eats frequently, unkown to the company
✩ A Christian believer, believing that timing is very important
✩ Always doubts herself even she knew she can do it
✩ "I'm not humble, I just know that I can't do those things"
✩ She'll not stop until she can't perfect/ do a certain task
✩ A certified gamer yet being scolded by her father many times, she diverted her attention to anime (secretly)
At first, she thought she's the oldest because she joined the company a little late but then, she's thankful to meet someone who's older and can guide her. She didn't expect to pass the audition, yet she has done it barely that makes her trainee position on the edge. She was always scolded by the teachers/trainers, making her push herself and exert tremendous effort to practice till dawn without no one knowing. She knows it's hard, but she has prepared for it. Being a perfectionist, she has successfully improved by only months, yet she's still on the average trainee making her think to stop sometimes. But as the thought of her father collapsing due to tiredness being a single parent, she couldn't back down, now that she's there and having the chance to make her father proud of her.
And there, she met Hoseok who helped her with her dancing, as well as Namjoon on her rap practices. She enjoyed training with them but as they debuted their time seems to be hectic until it comes to the time where they have no connection to each other.
Being one of the oldest, she's a good leader material. Yet people always pointed out her lack in skills, making her settle to being just a background member, knowing that she can still shine when that time comes. Her faith is a little bit wavering, but being announced that there will be a plan on debuting a girl group, she has to take this opportunity no matter what. She must have faith within herself, and she needs to be the faith that her members can look up alongside with the leader.
►EXPERIENCES
✩ Modelling, beauty contests
✩ MV appearances
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