I dont know what is wrong with me this time. Is it my fault or the medicines? This time i regret for dragging myself to doctor. Yes, i feel a lot better coz finally i can feel a bit supports around me, near me. But, after taking medicines for one week, i turn in zombie. Everything is gone! Im glad coz my worries, negative thoughts are gone. I dont feel depressed anymore. But, despite from that, my emotions and feelings are gone too! I cant feel anything. I cant cry or feelings sad. Im laughed but did not feel happy. I want to get mad but i cant! I want to scream but i cant! I dont know what should i feel right now. Its empty inside. Its empty before too but not like this. Right now, its empty but totally empty. Nothing left anymore. And ive decide to stop taking those meds coz i need my emotions to come back to me. Its been two days since ive stop taking those meds. And yet i did not feel anything. I keep thinking about self harm so that i can cry myself. I dont know what to do. I dont know if im getting better or not this time. I cant think of anything.