I am Kim Ridhwan

Character Name— Kim Hyunwoo 금현우

Other Names—

—  Ridhwan Kim  | English Name
—   Muhammad Ridhwan Bin Muhammad Roslan  | Muslim Name, His mother is Malay, when his father married her, he converted into a muslim and had gotten the name Roslan. So when Ridhwan was born, they gave him his muslim

Nicknames—

—  Rid  | Friends in Singapore | A shorter version of his name
—  Prince Charming  | His groupmates | He looks like he just came out of a princess movie. Ridhwan is very charming and is a well mannered boy, thus the nickname

Birthday— November 17, 1995

Age— 21

Birthplace & Hometown— Singapore, Singapore (1995-2009) Seoul, South Korea (2009-present)

Ethnicity— Korean-Singaporean / Muslim

Blood Type— O

Height— 190cm

Weight— 65kg

Languages—

— english | Fluent | 1st language
— Malay | Fluent | 2nd Language
— Korean | Advanced | He isn't very good in korean despite living in korea for about 6 years. He can understand but can't write hangul and tend to mix up words.

Face Claim— Lee Hongbin 이홍빈

Backup Face Claim— Seo Kang Joon 서강준

Style— Standing tall at 190cm and weighing only 65kg, Ridhwan is one tall asian man. He was once known as a model before thus, he has a built body. Owning six packs that can melt girl's heart with just a glimpse. His eyes are hazel coloured. He has dimples when he forms a smile alondside a pointy nose. His skin is a fair tone and is very soft like a baby's . He looks more korean, just like his father. Most people would question if Ridhwan is really related to his mother, seeing as he doesn't look like his mother. He owns multiple of tattoos, counting to a number of 4. Although tattoos are hated by most korean, Ridhwan doesn't care, although he is a muslim as well. His hair is styled just like a typical korean, where it stops directly on his eyebrows. His hair is black on colour seeing as he doesn't like to dye his hair. He also hates curly hair, so his hair is naturally straight.
Tattoos : 1 | 2 | 3 | 4

Ridhwan doesn't care about fashion. He just puts on whatever that looks decent to wear. His closet is full of dark coloured clothing such as black. He usually uses jeans, shirts, hoodies, converse and timberlands. He does not own any shorts nor does he own anything light coloured. He also loves using beanies and flannels. It makes him look decent. During practice, it would be the same. Just jeans, hoodie and his converse. Many thought that he would care about his looks, but it turned out that he was the total opposite and could care less about fashion. When he goes to bed or would just laze around the dorm, he would be using his sweatpants along with a plain shirt or he would just walk around shirtless, since he has a body, why not show it off. For his formal, he would just wear some dress shirt along with a blazer and jeans.

Casual: x | x | x | x | x
Formal: x | x | x | x | x
Practice: x | x | x | x | x
Dorm: He just walks around shirtless. x | he sleeps in his boxers.

Personality—

 Positive  Quick-witted, hardworking, responsible, intelligent, brave, protective
 Negative  Short temper, Quiet, Mysterious, impatient, reserved, sarcastic

Everyone would think that Ridhwan is a jerk, seeing as he is very self concious, especially with his abs, but that's not him at all. Never judge a book by it's cover, seeing as Ridhwan is actually a decent young man with a bright future. Ridhwan is quickwitted. Although he doesn't abuse his quick-wittedness. Ridhwan can think of answers to certain questions fast. He can get it in a flash. He can even solve a rubiks cube in just a minute. Due to his quick-wittedness, Ridhwan is also intelligent. Well, you might be thinking, "He's singaporean, he can't be that smart," Well, you're terribly wrong, because Ridhwan is very intelligent. He has an IQ of 150, just like his younger sister. He can be called a human encyclopedia as he knows answers to many things. He is usually top 5 in academics when he was in Singapore. Giving up is never in Ridhwan's dictionary. He would keep doing something, because he believes that there is a solution to every problem we face. If he can't find a solution, he would keep trying until he finds it. He believes that everything is possible. Brave. Ridhwan is one who never turn down a challenge. Once challenged, he would accept it without hesitation. Ridhwan doesn't fear a lot of things. He would never think negative about anything, seeing as he thinks it's no use. He loves challenges as well. He thinks it's fun. Well, every boy is very messy right? Well, not Ridhwan. Ridhwan is very responsible. He hates mess and would always be the one cleaning up Pixel&Screen Shot's dorm. He is OCD in some ways and loves organized things. Mess can cause his eyes to bleed. Once he loves and cherishes something or someone, Ridhwan can be very protective. He would kill anyone who messes with his loved ones and things. Sadly, those who messes with those, wouldn't survive any longer.

Apart from the good, Ridhwan has some bad side, that only a few people can see. Ridhwan might look like a calm person, but inside, he has a temper. It triggers everytime when he gets pissed. Heck, he gets pissed easily. He can break anything and everything he sees once he is pissed. he would start cussing in both malay and english and start slamming his fists on the wall. So far, no one in Pixel has seen him pissed off, so it is a good sign. Once he is mad, it would take a week or 2 to cool him down. Ridhwan doesn't talk much, especially during interviews and shows. He would let s have the spotlight, and would only talk if acknowledged. A lot of people find Ridhwan a mysterious dude thanks to his quietness. Due to him, just shutting and sewing his mouth shut, many are wondering about him. Saying that he is mysterious. Another thing about Ridhwan, is that he can never wait. Ridhwan waits for no one. They have to be early, or on time to satisfy him. Once a minute late, he would leave you hanging, without calling or texting. He would just leave. Harsh, i know, but Ridhwan seriously hates waiting. His mindset would be that, "I gave you a time, yet you couldn't arrive within the time given, so goodbye." Reserved. Like his quietness, Ridhwan loves to keep to himself. He thinks that friends can be a burden to you at times. So, he keeps to himself most of the time. He could be dozing off into his own world or would be busy writing lyrics. The only way he could express his feelings. Well, you want the truth? Ridhwan is actually very sarcastic. There is a reason why he keeps quiet during interviews, because whatever comes out his mouth, would be followed by a sarcastic remark. Sometimes it's funny, sometimes it's just plain offensive.

Likes—

— Black
— Hip Hop (Eminem, Lil wayne, Ice Cube etc.)
— Rock Music (Black Veil Brides, Pierce the Veil, My Chemical Romance[I'm still sad they disbanded] etc.)
— Tattoos
— Exercising (The cause of his body)
— Ramen (He eats ramen nearly everyday, yet he doesn't get sick)
— Lyric writing

Dislikes—

— Skinship
— Chocolate
— Musicals (I swear, he calls them "Gay people in sweats")
— Spicy Food (He has a low tolerance of spicy food. In simple words, he can't eat spicy food)
— Coconut
— His family excluding his sisters
— Waiting

Hobbies—

— Playing the guitar while writing lyrics
— working out (He goes to the gym 3 days a week)
— skateboarding

Habits—

— Biting his fingernails when nervous
— Glaring without a reason (Like seriously, he glares for about 12 hours everyday)
— Rapping to whatever songs he listens to
— his lips when annoyed
— Cussing in Malay, English and Korean

Trivia—

— Allergic to Chocolate and Coconut
— He is Muslim and can't eat pork
— He has once said that he has a hard time looking for food in Korea, seeing as Korea is full of Pork
— Has Acrophobia and claustrophobia
— Is Biual
— Fights for LGBT rights
— Had an aggregate score of 278 for PSLE (It's put of 300) and a score of 6 for 'O' Levels (the lower the number, the better)
— Owns 2 cats, (Kiki and Mimi)
— Right Handed
— Was Part of SM Rookies
— Instagram: @M.RidKim47 ; Twitter: RidNakMampos47
— Sometimes would shoot out Malay words during conversations
— He has a cuss problem, where he would cuss in English, Malay and Korean
— Have never tasted Korean Beef
— He has a malay accent when speaking english

Background— Born on November 17, 1995 in a small street called Hougang in Singapore, to mixed parents. A korean father and a Malay mother. Ridhwan wasn't planned, nor was he wanted but his parents, mother specifically, was very religious, thus kept him instead of give him away. They would be honest, they didn't care about him. When he cries, when he is asleep, when he is laughing. They didn't care. As you can see, while growing up, Ridhwan did not receive his parents' love, which was what he wanted and yearned for so long. They couldn't care less about him. They thought he was a burden to their family. His mother would cane him if he did a slight mistake. His father would yell at him for being too childish. Ridhwan, would always be locked in his room, starving. If he wanted to eat, his mother would scold him for being greedy.

It continued, up until his mother passed away while giving birth to twins. His younger sisters, when he was just 5 years old. She couldn't take it. His younger sister's came out a few weeks early, thus they were unexpected. The thing was, his father favoured the 2 young girls, Aishah and Fariesha Kim. He would spoil them, buy for them whatever they want. To Ridhwan's father, he only has daughters, and that was Ridhwan's younger siblings. That was the cause of Ridhwan's quietness. That was the cause of Ridhwan, being a rebel to his family once he grew older. He witnessed how his father showered his sisters with love. Something so foreign to him, that made him feel jealous of those 2. He has a mindset of "Why would he treat us differently?" and "Was it my fault to be born?" When they were having dinner, Ridhwan would have to sit on another table, while his father and siblings would share the same table.

This continued, up until Ridhwan finally turned 10. 5 years of jealousy. 5 years of toture. He finally became the rebel he already was. Whenever his father asks him to do something, he would ignore him. He doesn't care about his family anymore. He was broken. Whether he was caned or not, he doesn't care. His heart was already damaged due to the fact that he had never received love by anyone. His grandparents favours Aishah and Fariesha more. Just like his father. The only people who truly and deeply cared for him, were his younger siblings. Whenever Ridhwan gets caned, which would cut his skin, his siblings would be the one to clean his wound. Despite being only 5 years old. They love Ridhwan a lot and would always mention him in every conversation they have. Although Ridhwan might look like he did not care about them, he loves them very much, that he would do anything for them.

For months, he had been caned for about 3 times per week. You might be wondering, how can he even endure it? We all know his heart was already damaged, but what kept him going? Well, music. Music was what kept him going. Ridhwan got into music, specifically rap, in school. During music lessons, he would be the only person, sitting in a corner, while memorising rap lyrics that could make him happy. He even bought a notebook, specially for rap lyrics. That's where he expresses his feelings. The feeling of pain and agony. Most of his lyrics are about his life story, and how he tries and endure his cruel life. Smart for a 10 year old, but what can you say, Ridhwan is a smart boy.

Age 13, that was when everything turned upside down. His father, stopped giving him money. Stopped giving him allowance for school. For food. For living. His father, thinks that he is old enough to get his own money. Heck, Ridhwan himself was shocked by the sudden outburst of his father. He was only 13, he only finally finished a major exam in Singapore. The Primary School Leaving Examination, or PSLE for short. He doesn't even have an education to start working anywhere. That was when, he came to have a bright idea. Performing on the streets. He used his talent, Rapping, and would sometimes perform after school at a mall. Many were very impressed on his rapping skills, seeing as he would ask strangers for a simple word, such as "Lights", and think of lyrics, from then on, he would start rapping based on the word given. Videos went viral when people started video taping his performance. That was when a miracle happened a year later, when Ridhwan was 14, SM Entertainment, scouted him, by sending him a message. Elated, Ridhwan accepted the offer, and became a trainee.

He soon flew to Korea, after saying his goodbyes to his younger sisters. Honestly, he did not want to leave any of them, but he wanted a future. He wanted a career, which can satisfy his talents and passion. Although, he didn't know anything about Korea nor did he know anything about Kpop. The term he was training for, but he would do anything to achieve his dream, thus trained. Sadly, 5 years later, he left SM. He didn't like the way they trained people. They tell him what to do, and that's what Ridhwan hates, people telling him what to do. With no where else to go, Ridhwan soon did what he did years ago. He performed on the streets, except this time, he performed in korean. Speaking in Hangul instead of English. Fortunately, a talent show came about, where Source Music discovered him and signed him.

Family— I only put those who are relevant to him

— Younger Sister | Aishah Kim | 16 | Student | sweet, talkative, friendly | Aishah, or her korean name, Joohyun, Ridhwan's younger sister. Aishah is the older twin, and the more nicer twin. Ridhwan is very protective of her. Seeing as Aishah is very innocent, despite being 15 years old. Ridhwan loves Aishah a lot and would get hurt if she is upset or when she burst into tears. Aishah's dream is to become a Veterinarian, seeing as she loves animals (Fc. Dani Kim [I couldn't think of anyone else, seeing as Dani looks a bit malay to me, so i used her])

— Younger Sister | Fariesha Kim | 16 | Student | slacker, lazy, rebellious | Fariesha, or her korean name, Soohyun, Ridhwan's other younger sister. Fariesha is the younger twin, and the lazy one. She hates studying, unlike Aishah. She is a rebel and tend to complain a lot due to school and a lot of things. Despite her being lazy, Ridhwan still loves her, but whenever he tries to be protective, Fariesha would push him away, seeing as she wants to be independent. Her dream is to become an idol, just like her brother (Fc. Dani Kim)

Friends—

— best friend | Choi Minsoo | 21 | Trainee under SM | optimistic, talented, funny | They met once Ridhwan started training under SM, which was 7 years ago. Year 2009. Minsoo, one of the longer trainees, kept hidden in SM's Dungeon. He is also part of SM Rookies, similar to Ridhwan, but no one have heard from him once. SM have never revealed who he really was, except upload his recent "Love Yourself" cover. Minsoo and Ridhwan are like brothers. They are like blood related brothers who have each other's back no matter where or when. (Fc. Han Sanghyuk)

— Groupmate | Ahn Sungjun | 20 | Member of Pixel | Talkative, Loud, Harsh | Ridhwan doesn't consider him as a friend. He only thinks of Sungjun as a groupmate. A person he is stuck with for the rest of his idol life, unless if he leaves Pixel. Although they aren't really close, Sungjun would go to him if he had a problem he can't solve. The thing that annoys Ridhwan the most, is that Sungjun is a very loud and talkative man. He can never keep his idiotic [sorry] mouth closed and would always talk. Especially when Ridhwan wants some quiet time.

— Groupmates | Pixel&Screen Shot | Varies | Idols | Playful, lively, cheerful | The people he has to spend his whole idol life with. Like Sungjun, Ridhwan doesn't consider them as friends. He considers them as people he has to work with for the entire year. He isn't close to any of the members, seeing as he is very reserved when around them. Only keeping to himself when in the van or in a room. He would always be found, sitting in the corner, with his earbuds on. Ignoring the others, who had made the effort to start a conversation.

Love Interest— You can play matchmaker.

Age— you can decide on the age limit

Group— if he has one

Personality— if needed

First Meeting— if needed

Interactions— this will probably be needed so do be detailed

Stage Name— Ridhwan

Persona— The sarcastic genius

Position— Main rapper, dancer [Backup; Leader, Main Dancer, Vocalist]

Talent twins— Lee Hongbin (Singing, Talking) Shin Hoseok (Dancing) Kim Namjoon (Rapping) 

Fanclub Name— Riddles

Fanclub Colour—  #cc9999 

Training Years— 5 years under SM. 2 years under Source Music [What a coincidence, both of them are like SM xD]

Trainee Life— Trainee life. Well, when Ridhwan first came to Korea, he found out that he would have problems looking for food. Seeing as he is Muslim, and can't eat pork, he would have to find a place where would have the Halal sign or wouldn't sell any pork. Honestly, Ridhwan would always savour ramen, the only thing he can eat, while his company try and search for the closest Halal food restaurant for him to eat propper food. It honestly was a bad thing, seeing as Ramen doesn't have much nutrition and chemical potential energy for him to train. He would always feel dizzy and nauseous once overworked. Plus, SM always overworks their trainees and artists. Ridhwan would be honest, during those 5 years, he couldn't concentrate and train hard, as his body lacks nutrition for him. Well, up until they found a place for him to have the nutrition he needs. After that, many found a major improvement in him. Before, he would half heartedly rap, but soon, he would soon rap with passion and energy. Many complimented him, seeing as he was quite young. His dream of becoming an idol was so close.

But everything came to a stop, once he was cut. Shocked and devastated, Ridhwan had no choice but to leave SM. Without anything. Without money to spend, food to eat nor did he have any place to live in. He couldn't ask Minsoo, seeing as Minsoo lives in a dorm SM provided. That was when he thought of street performing again. I mean, that was what got him to train. Perfoming almost everyday, getting decent amount of cash to rent a room and for food. It wasn't a life Ridhwan thought of, but it satisfy him. Seeing as he can still perform. Many thought that he would go back to Singapore, after failing to debut. But Ridhwan would never return. He never wanted to face his father, who would laugh in front of his face. Laugh at his stupid dream. He thought he would live, rapping in the streets, up until he found out about a talent show. It wasn't a big talent show but it could give him a chance to showcase his talent. So he joined in. Like usual, he asked the judges for a simple word, which was "Dream". Having heard of this one before, Ridhwan soon rapped out his love and passion for rapping through his freestyle rap, Which of course, impressed the judges. Sadly, he was eliminated when it hit the Semi-finals. Fortunately for him, that was when Source Music Entertainment, discovered and signed him.

Training in Source Music, was more chilled than training in SM. They didn't overwork him, like how SM did. Ridhwan did make some new friends, but nobody could replaced Minsoo. Everyone in Source Music treated each other like family. No matter if you're a trainee or an idol, they still love and care for each other. During his training days, Ridhwan had never felt more loved than ever. He finally felt important. He continued training for about 2 years before being placed in the new co-ed group lineup.

Pre-debut Experiences—

— Formerly part of SM Rookies
— Formerly a street performer

Scandals —

— None at the moment

Comments/Suggestions— Hope u like him^^
Pixel: Winner Empty | Mblaq This is war | Cross Gene Play with me, Amazing bad lady | JJCC Fire | UNIQ EoEo | Shinee Sherlock | History Queen, Might just die
Screen Shot: Sistar I Like that, Loving U, Touch my body | Miss A Only You, I don't need a man | Girl's Day Something, Darling, Female President

Scene Requests—

— None at the moment

Password— Most of the songs are up there so I'll just put the gif here^^ I ship Hyungwonho too much it hurts

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