Its 12:15am. To myself who are right now her mind is wandering to nowhere, lets stop now. You have done everything u could. You have done what u should do. You have done your best. You tired. Its okay if u could give a rest to urself. Dont push urself too hard. Sometimes, its okay to let it go and let everything go. Lose ur grab of those things and just sit back and rilex urself. Lets remember back how its feel to be fresh again, how it feel to not tired all the time, how it feel to fully happy about everything, how it feel to be positive, how it feel to dream again, how its feel to have feelings, how it feel to had good laugh, how it feel to enjoy the sunrise, how it feel to be beautiful, how it feel to be confident, how it feel to smile from ur heart, how it feel when you have a good day, how its feel to be healhty. Lets bring all those feelings back. Its okay if u want to cry. Tears does not mean u are weak. You have fight for a long time. You are strong fighter. But sometimes, strong fighter also need to step back and lose. So that he can start again with a good way and win in the end. I believe u can. I believe u can over it. No one knows u better than urself. U have watch urself all this time, u know ur hardship. Please dont torture urself more. Please dont push urself so hard. Its enough. Tell urself, its time to rest. So, to myself, hope u rest very well. I love u.