"What are you going to do in the future?"

I have been hearing it ever since I went with my family to Japan.

It's seriously frustrating me to bits and I can't think straight because my dad would keep on questioning me everyday and I CANT BREATHE.

So yeah I'm sorry to any of my readers if I haven't been updating my stories. I just have too much on my mind atm.

At first I was so damn sure about getting into medicine and becoming a doctor because that's what I've always dreamed of but then my mom started talking to me about being 'open-minded' and trying out different things first. And a few days back she talked to me about the possibility of me taking languages and international affairs since I liked reading, writing and studying new cultures. I wasn't against it at all. It sounded so cool to be able to go around countries and trying new things but I was still stuck on becoming a doctor and helping people (I have this dream of building a hospital for the people in need but is it too big of a dream?)

I learned that people in my country are in lack of medical facilities and attention since the med students from here go to other countries to work and study. I felt like I wanted to do something about that.

If I really do decide to focus mainly on languages then I would throw that other dream away.

I'm scared because what if in the future I see someone else doing what I could've done and regretted not taking that plunge?

Would I choose differently if I had known the future?

I mean, I enjoy writing and all but I'm not sure if that's what I really want to do. And I want to take medicine but I don't know if it's worth a shot.

Lol if you read all that word-vomit. I'm just thankful for hearing me out.