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If you have noticed... I havent updated any of my stories since i posted the first story for my exo monster drabbles. I dont know whether this is writer's block, because of stress or what. But for these past few months, I am not okay. I am really not. I dont even know why I'm posting this and if someone will read this or not but I want to be transparent to everyone of you. I havent replied to PMs yet and im so sorry about that too.

Most of you know that Ive started my first job few months back.... and the stress is like.... too much. You know... the people are nice but the nature of the work itself is really just too stressful... to the point that I always unconsciously fall asleep at night due to tiredness. Ive been hesitating to resign but i dont want my job history to look pathetic. Like hello, who wants to ruin his/her career. But... recently i feel like i am not for this field... :(

In addition to that, my family is experiencing a major problem. I wont get into the details but it's just soooo annoying and painful at the same time. I'm like amazed how Korean dramas can exist in real life. And it's happening to my life ryt now. It's so freaking ridiculous. OTL

Why am I negative and weak as ? Everyday Im starting to lose my confidence. Im being too OA. I know. But i just cant help but think about work when I get home. And it's not right. I have sleep disruptions, nightmares, worries anxities.. ugh. I think im going crazy. When i go to work, i face stress... then when i get home i also face stress????!!! Like what the hell is wrong with this year? Last year we were so happy. Just minor conflicts and all. I was looking forward for my first job. But now everything's just too complicated.

Writing has surely helped me. Your comments and feedbacks have helped me forget about my daily struggles. That's why even if I have less time to sleep, i still updated. This is exactly why i got disappointed with Lucifer's First Love readers. I felt so unappreciated because i received lesser comments... T.T

And now... I really want to update but I cant... and I dont know why. Please hang on.... I love my stories and I know Im really a binge writer but I hope you'll wait for me... I know Im not deserving but... ugh.... what am i saying?

That's it. When i do update, i look forward to see your interesting comments. I dont know for how long i will feel like this and when will I update my stories. I hope you understand me.

Thank you you

And superdupper, thank you for being there as always. Love you. <3 XOXO