That moment when you realized that you're being too quiet, too the corner, too inactive, in class...

Last two days, my Physics teacher gave us a group task. I was put into a group which consist of a bunch of kids who... I didn't friendly with.

I had no desire to ask them to do things, no desire to cooperate with them, and even the desire to talk to them about the task. I don't have the power of leadership even though I am not the leader. I am very bad/weak/loser when it came to group work. 

I decided to do the work on my own without discussing anything with teammates. What's important now is my marks and that's all i could think. I need to do it without help, because I could predicted when is the work going to be done. Probably, next two years.

When the task was done, I quickly went and meet my Physics teacher to submit the work. 

She asked for my name and my class, and I told her. 

It was common if a teacher can't remember his/her students' name because he/she had a lot of classes. It was also common if this particular teacher didn't even recognized me because I am very quiet and inactive in class. Sitting a the very corner and the very back of the class might be another factor.

But as much as someone says "I'm okay", there must 0.0001% of thoughts that claimed "I will be happy if you are concerned over me"

As much as someone says "I don't mind", there must be 0.0001% of thoughts that claimed "It will be better if you listen to my opinion too"

As much as someone says "I don't mean it", there must be 0.0001% of thought that claimed "I do mean what i said just now"

And as much as i know it is common to know that a teacher don't really recognized me, it still hurt when i got to listen to it right into my face.

"Oh, so...you're in my class. I don't notice you, though,"