finally! i'm able to post something?! guess i'll be using firefox for awhile until chrome goes back to normal when it comes to AFF. for the past few days i'm unable to post anything except for comments and status change. don't know the exact reason but when i tried another browser... well, here i am, making a quick post.

so this friday and next monday and tuesday will be exam days for us. stressful, sleepless, tiresome nights to prepare for 2 quizzes and an exam which all feel like the finals or midterms.

on the previous post about me fangirling coz i saw my RS korean crush at a coffee shop, i returned to that coffee shop this afternoon to study out. there's less temptation and well i was hoping to see him again. which didn't happen until about 7-ish pm! weeeeeee!!!!!! but my position wasn't strategic enough then FC (if you remember him, as the guy who'd boldly/semi-boldly tell and show to the world that he has something for me, really not joking and bragging. we're good friends now, i'm getting the use of it) decided to share my table.

after minutes and probably an hour of stealing glances at RS crush, FC finished studying for the nth time, idk, and started reviewing and asking me questions (well he started asking some questions while he was still reading) and i was mostly *blank expression* *smiling, sorry expression* and idk. although i was able to answer some.

then after that... well he asked me to go with him to the restroom/CR which was somewhere outside. but when we did went out he sat me on one of the empty chairs and asked me seriously "why are you not taking med seriously?" or smthing like that. well that's how i remembered it. i was oh my god, what's wrong with him being serious all of a sudden?

then a little serious Q&A with me laughing awkwardly and saying "Why are you asking me these questions?"

and somewhere deep inside my head i was like this is like having a 'talk' with my dad. it's not like i don't know that i'm at the wrong too... i'm sorry!!! please stop and get back to your usual annoying but entertaining self.

for a moment i thought whoah! i got myself a big bro. but yeah, i know despite already chainging from how i was during my pre-med days, i know i haven't done everything i have. i mean i still get distracted by a lot of things and the only way for me to be surely not get distracted is get away from stuff that has wifi and laptop or pc or tv.

and like i said, FC isn't so irritating as he used to be. he's been helpful while studying tonight, i realized i retained some and i still need to re-read a lot which i don't have time anymore?! >0

the last thing he probably said was "so ang tao nga dli mag.naning ma.doctor d.i?" (so people who don't study hard/read hard/study woud just become a doctor?) i'm reaaaalllyyy sorrryyy i'll do better! OTL i just hope God will let me pass 1st year and next school year which is june 2012 i'd be a 2nd year like him and Top student (my friend who is also hardworking)

and i just realized something other than the enlightenment i jsut received tonight... i've gotten used to FC being feely touchy and giving me attention that it's scary... what if what enemy forever said would come true (which wouldn't for the fact that FC has a gf already)

"Mersh, what if magkadayon mo?" (*My real name's nickname*, what if you'd end up together?" and i was like LOL.

and there was something Megaphone whispered to FC today that i know is related to me and i'm curious about it, coz they were teasing him or singing 'sana dalawa ang puso ko' (if only i had two hearts) and 'kinsa man jud imo? bad ra bah na mag.duha' (who is it that you really want? it's not nice to have two things [something like that])... ¬_¬ but then again, i think i'm just being a Leo, and actually liking the attention he's giving me while my crushes don't know i exists lol...  still got sorta scolded by FC and after 'the talk' i exchanged seats with him to get a clearer view of RS!XD