I stole this from Tumblr and felt like doing one of these things. I think after this, I'm finally going to tackle the 5000 question survey and write it all down in a notebook bc I need to reflect on my life and figure out what the heck I'm doin'.

Also, feel free to answer these questions too and leave the link to your blogpost as a comment below that way I can check it out~

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?

Yes

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?

3. But if there is just a bit of light around then only like 1. I used to be really paranoid when I was little, but having to walk three blocks at 6 a.m. for four years to the bus stop in high school helped cure my fear of the dark.

3. The person you would never want to meet?

I dunno. Maybe someone who wanted to kill me?

4. What is your favorite word?

Ghosts. It's fun to say aloud because the first "s" makes a sound, then right after there is a separate "s" sound as well, so pronouncing the latter half of the word is like an unintentional beat-box.

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?

Apple tree bc I like apples and would want to have a purpose besides just standing there all day.

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?

"My face is very puffy, I need to eat less junk food."

7. What shirt are you wearing?

A grey sleeveless tank top with an MTV logo colored like the American flag. I went for a walk today and it was hot af so I needed smth breezy~

8. What do you label yourself as?

Lazy. I'm trying to change that but I'm scared of investing my time into something that ends up failing.

9. Bright room or dark room?

Dark because I can focus better and relax (see, so lazy)

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

I remember at 2 am I started watching Jacksepticeye's Paper Please series, but midnight...I don't exactly remember. I do know I was chillin' in my room alone, but I'm not sure the exact activity I was partaking in. OH I was probably watching Youtube videos, because right before I watched that series, I was watching his Riddle School series, which took a few hours...So I was probably watching a Riddle School playthrough by Jacksepticeye. I was going on a full youtube binge yesterday haha.

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?

8/9 because that's when I had really good friends, was top of my class at school, and was too little for my family to treat me maturely so life was easy and fun.

12. Who told you they loved you last?

Idk prob my grandma or smth

13. Your worst enemy?

MY LAZYASS SELF! I never get anything done and it's my own fault for just being a sack of potatoes all day.

14. What is your current desktop picture?

It's all stretched out and ugly on my desktop bc the dimensions don't fit. But it's been that image since before the comeback. I should prob change it to smth that looks prettier and is also currently relevant lol.

15. Do you like someone?

Like, crush wise? No actually, and that's insane coming from me bc I've been boy-crazy since age 4, but I've been really asocial lately and trying to (and failing to) work on improving myself.

16. The last song you listened to?

I'm listening to music right now! I have a Troye Sivan playlist on autoplay on Youtube, and the current song is Troye Sivan - DKLA ft. Tkay Maidza

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

Someone who has been burdening my family for a LONG time, but I can't outright say their relation to me bc some of y'all will be like "that's ed up". But if you understood the situation and how toxic they are, you'd agree w me.

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

The person I referred to in my previous answer.

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?

This sounds it could easily be ual lol. Idk, I'd feel bad for wasting someone's day lie that, so no one really.

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)

Idk, I don't look at things as individual pieces, but rather as a part of the whole image it helps to compose. I enjoy how long my legs are and their side view, but I still need to improve the muscle/fat ratio bc front view my calves are too thick w muscle and my thighs are too limp w fat.

21. If you were the opposite for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?

I dunno what the hell I'd look like wtf. Why would I do anything different though? My life would be the same I'm guessing, but I would prob bc who wouldn't? It be interesting to feel what a guy feels.

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?

I'm good at singing~

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

People ignoring me? I dunno how to think of a unique thing I'm afraid off bc I'm not afraid of much. But I always want to make things perfect bc I consider things I create as parts of me and so I want the things I make to be as perfect (to me) as possible that way people enjoy it. I hate when people ignore things that I've worked hard on doing. 

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.

Not a fan of sandwiches. I once had big pepperonis on basic white bread before and it was good. But I really like the meatball kind of sandwich from subway, with the heavy red sauce you know (I'm not even going to attempt to spell it bc it will take 4ever to get auto-correct to figure out wth I'm aiming for). So, maybe that meatball kind of sub w pepperoni and salami and lots of motzerella cheese. Basically a pizza in sub form.

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

I'd buy some clothes. That's my main personal expensive haha.

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

SOUTH KOREA, DUH HOE.

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?

I don't drink alcohol soooooooo I'd go for, my first thought was Red Bull, but I'd prob up my nervous system and give myself a heart attack bc I have very little self-control. So maybe.....hhmmmm......I don't like soda either, and OH Lemonade. Pink lemonade, it's bomb <3

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place? 

Mandatory yoga at 5:30 am. Get everybody up and stretching early, it's a good way to start the day.

29. What is your favorite expletive?

30. Your house is on fire, holy ! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?

My phone hahaha I'm soooo basic

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

Dropping out of university mid-term. I would rather go back and finish the semester then come home during winter break and never go back, but I was so confused and stressed and I still feel just as lost know as I did then, so I don't think it would improve anything, but at least I would have still been active and doing stuff everyday. I know getting a re-do isn't quite what the question was asking, but I wouldn't want to completely black smth out my memory, bc that can have massive negative mental effects late on in life.

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool … you can move to anywhere else in the world!

I'd either go to SK for obvi reasons, or Ireland. I'm iffy on moving to SK bc they don't like giving foreigners jobs, but I've been a big fan of Irish culture for years before I found Korean stuff and I have ancestry there and they speak English so it'd be a lot more easy and logical. Plus Ireland is so damn pretty and also real chill but also kinda of always pissed and I really relate.  Canada seems too fake nice for me, England is a no-no and Scotland is unfortunately too close to Enlgand, so yeah, Ireland. Maybe South Korea if I could find a hella nice job.

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?

I haven't had someone close to met die so idk. If it was just a random person I could choose, I'd pick.......Maya Angelou. She did live a good and long life, but she was just so damn amazing and truly a great poet that i'd love for her to have a few more years even if she didn't provide any new works, I just really appreciated writers and feel like they deserve to experience a lot because it's truly awesome (with the real definition of the word) viewing life through a writer's lense.

34. What was your last dream about?

I rarely see or remember my dreams, so honestly It's gonna take a minute. I feel like a had a dream recently that I found interesting, but I can't remember it for the life of me. On top of that, I've been staying awake for hours the past half a week for no good reason, so I haven't been sleeping long enough to see any dreams I guess.

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?

My first thought was "food". Top that I'd say, maybe? Please don't try to figure that out though.

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?

Yes! I had stitches beside my eye when I was 2/3, and broke my right arm when I was 6, and had to have a spinal surgery at age 8. There was also I time in elementary school were I kept vomiting AND diaherreaing at the same time and I remember going to the kids hospital for that (don't remember the exact age though). That's all~

37. Have you ever built a snowman?

Yep. It's not very fun though. Forts and snowballs are more fun.

38. What is the color of your socks?

I'm sockless right now (how scandalous ooo-hoo), but I was wearing socks yesterday I think, and they were white. Most of my socks are white.

39. What type of music do you like?

All of it. My phone currently only has kpop on it, but thats bc I listen to the radio a lot and usually pick the pop/hiphop stations. Then I listen to a lot of pop/hiphop recently online. I like rock too and of course indie. Classical/instrumental is my for studytime, so I quite enjoy those as well~

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?

Sunsets. Sunrises always feel kind of sad, like "oh no the boring day is starting, no more nighttime :("

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?

I've only had like 1 milkshake ever I think. It was from McDonalds and I think and it was either chocolate or vanilla, but the cup had some strawberry syrup stuck on the side or smth and it wasn't supposed to be in the drink and it freaked me out bc I thought it was blood and was scared that the person who made the drink might of had a fresh cut and then maybe their band-aid feel in my drink along w some blood ( I was like 7 and far too imaginative), so that really threw me off of milkshakes. I'd guess chocolate though bc it sounds safe and hard not to love.

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer)

I don't follow sports lol

43. Do you have any scars?

Yeah, beside my eye from the stitches I had as a child (I apparently tripped over a cable cord in the living room at home, and fell and hit the side of my face on the coffee table. My family was scared that I would be blind bc it was so close to my eye they thought I had actually hit my eye. I have no recollection of this and had my granny tell me this story when I was like 7 or 8 and got tired of looking in the mirror and wondering where the hell the scar on my face came from haha). One at the bottom of my spine from the surgery I had as a child as well (I have scoliosis, which is a curved spine. I had to get a lot of back check-ups growing up because of it and one time they found a random fiber tugging at the bottom of my spine that they needed to remove otherwise it'd hold it down and I'd have a hunchback. I still have a hella curved spine though. My doctor advised me to get a back brace in middle school to help it grow properly, but I cried at the thought bc I didn't want to get teased so I ended up not getting it. I wish I would have just done it though bc it would have helped me grow taller and also help my spine be stronger. I currently don't have back pain unless I still in a bad position for too long, but I try to be careful of my posture that way my back won't ever get too bad). None others that I can think of though.

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?

I didn't and still don't have a clue. Age 4 to 12 I wanted to be a veterinarian bc I loved animals. But then when I was 12 or 13, I discovered what an ecologist was (basically a scientist who studies the relationship between living things and their environment) and was set on being that until I was 15. Then I had an awful chemistry teacher and I also grew really lazy with doing schoolwork, so I started hating science. I've been lost on what to do ever since.

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

That it'd be able to create a goal and stick to completing it until it was done. I'm good at creating goals that aren't fully fleshed or meaningful, and then feeling nervous and like I'd be wasting time doing it so I never complete them. I wish I could find something I'm passionate about that I could focus on doing and becoming great at, but currently I either hate the things I'm "good" at, or am too nervous to try pursuing things I really enjoy because of insecurities.

46. Are you reliable?

Nooooooooope.

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

How did you figure out what to do and how can I start doing it now?

48. Do you hold grudges?

Depends on the severity, but I try not too. Stupid things don't deserve my energy.

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?

A Chihuahua and a lemur. A monkey-dog sounds adorable and fun.

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?

Idk. If I don't purposely intend to remember something, I forget it in two seconds, so nothing comes to mind.

51. Are you a good liar?

Yes but I feel bad about lying so I try to never do it.

52. How long could you go without talking?

A long time so long as I'm by myself. I'm good at being social when I want, so if I was around ppl all the time, I'd want to talk to them.

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?

Sixth/seventh grade when I was lazy about doing my hair and just kept it pushed back w thick headbands.

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?

I've never baked anything on my own, but I always help when I can so I can snack on excess batter.

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?

Yeah. I love making fun of accents so if I practice one for a few minutes then I can easily do it.

56. What do you like on your toast?

Nothing really. I barely eat toast, but when I do, I tend to enjoy it best plain.

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?

I drew like pictures to help me memorize Korean vocab, so some kind of random doodle. I haven't seriously drawn anything in YEARS because it stresses me out.

58. What would be your dream car?

One that never breaks so I don't have to worry about breaking down or paying to get it fixed~

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.

I used to sing in the shower but my family complained so I don't anymore :/

Sometimes I dance in the shower but it's dangerous so I try to keep it restricted to simple choreo that don't require much footwork.

60. Do you believe in aliens?

Yeah. It's dumb to think that our universe is so massive and we are the only living things in it.

61. Do you often read your horoscope?

My actual horoscope, no, because it never makes sense. But I'm a massive fan of looking at zodiac tumblr posts and reading about myself (leo ftw~)

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?

A. It's the first, often represents the best and its the start of my first name.

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

Dinosaurs

64. What do you think about babies?

Cute but not for me unless I'm married w a stable income and lots of patience.

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.

Do you sleep w your socks? I tend not too but don't really mind having them on either.

That took a while but helped reconfirm that I need to start doing things to help me figure out what to do w my life. Thanks. (not really)