This isn't KPOP related or anything..

I have this friend and she is so beautiful. I mean, she is the kind of friend whom grabs the attention of every guy who walks in, you know. Like, a lot of guys just added me on FB, or texted me to be closer to her. And, I'm used to it. It's okay. I'm not the beautiful friend, she is.

It's funny 'cause she is the beautiful one but in fact she doesn't have her own personnality or style. She's always doing the same things I do, wearing the same clothes my bestfriend and I wear etc. And, well, it can be annoying but I'm okay with that, 'cause I know she is insecure. ( Which is weird 'cause sometimes she just acts like she owns the world, but I know it's just a mask. )

But you know, she always follows me everywhere I go. And I love her, I do, but.. I just.. Just let me tell you, how she follows me everywhere..

I met her when I was 14. I ended up in her class and at the beginning we didn't like each other. We became friends anyway, and when we finished school, we had to choose which High School we were going to.
She chose the same as me.

In high school, we had to do internships. And in my 3 years of High school (3 years in France), in my 3 internship, she chose the same as me.

Then, when we gratuated high school, I started to take some classes from home. And she did to.

My mom then passed away so I couln't afford my classes anymore. I stopped, and she did the same.

I chose to help people. I started volunteering, I helped some kids that needed it, and guess what ? She did the same, one more time. In the same place, of course.

I continued volunteering and I worked for free as a waitress during a music festival. She was there, with me.

She then found a boyfriend, and I practically didn't see her anymore. She was always with him, and when I told her that I wish we could have some time together, she didn't care that much. Yes, I was kinda pissed that she did eveything I did, but she was still my friend.

When her relationship started to have some problems, she came back to me for advices, that I gave of course.

In the meantime, I found a job in a school, where I help a kid with a handicap. She was still not working, and she wasn't even looking for a job. She was living with her boyfriend, and he paid for everything. Then her boyfriend told her that she needed to get a job 'cause he couldn't just let her live and paid for everything by himself. She wasn't happy about it. She complained because he was too harsh on her, when really, she didn't do anything during 3 whole years.

Anyway, since she didn't have a choice, she began to search for a job, but since she doesn't have any diploma, she couldn't find one. So, she started to do some internships. And really, good for her that she finally started to do something with her life but..

This job was mine. I work here for almost a year, and I love it. The kids are cute, and nice, and they always ask for a hug, and for me to tell them stories. But one day, without even telling me, she asked for an internship in the school I work, to do the same job as me, in the same class. And all of sudden, kids were all over her, saying how pretty she was, and asking her for stories. Hugging her and playing with her.

And I just.. I just wanted to have one single thing just for me. I wanted to have something that I didn't have to share with her.  I wanted this to be me. Not us. Not her.

And I don't know, I'm probably being selfish and I feel bad for thinking like this but..

I just.. I just don't know how to stop thinking this way..