It's almost two weeks to my 5-months long holiday and I already miss school.

Yep, you read it right. I miss school. Isn't that amazing? I mean, I complain about school as much as the next guy, but now, when I actually have all the free time for me to sleep at 2 AM and wake up at 3 PM watching SHINee, marathoning MCU, and writing fanfictions, I miss school.

my life.

It's really weird. I used to complain every minute of everyday about how high school and my friends are , but now, I miss the ers that I've been together with for three years. And I miss studying.

Is this some kind of disease?

Anyway, all jokes aside, it's very strange. At times, you're just hit by this burst of optimism, and you're like 102% sure you're all going to be BFFs forever, keeping in touch and in contact until you're all wrinkly and ugly and have seventeen grandkids. Other times, however, there's the strong sense of insecurities, as if it's all going to disappear at a blink of an eye and tomorrow you'll wake up to see your previously active, jokes-filled group chats turning into an empty, hollow shell of what fun it once was.

I don't get it, really, how a bunch of strangers could be forced together in a certain place and certain situation and suddenly they're bonded. I used to take a while to look at them, study their every moves and their unique behaviors. I used to wonder how it'd be like if they never came here. If I never met them.

This 's getting sappy.

So, graduation is in less than three weeks and I'm still getting cold feet over the fact that all this fun might expire the moment we receive our diploma, as if it's an off-switch to the weird dynamic we built over the years.

I don't know, man, but for some unfanthomable reason, I want to keep it like this for as long as I can.