I noticed that some of you are old readers that have been around since my Marriage 101 days, which for me truly is impressive, especially when so many of you stick around till the end, and stick around some more for my new fanfictions.

That's... pretty ing amazing to me, honestly.

I realize that sometimes I take really, really long breaks in between chapters. If you were following my updates, you'd notice that sometimes I update really fast, and sometimes I went missing for like, months, and then came back out of nowhere.

Well, there actually is a legitimate reason to that.

So you see, writing is my way of releasing stress. I can only write when I'm truly at a low point in life (as I previously mentioned to one of my long-time reader and my beta reader), and those moment (thank God) don't come often. I started Marriage 101 because I was under so much stress and pressure and bogged down by so many responsibilities; I don't remember what it was all about, but I remember being overwhelmed by college life and the fact that my friends were moving forward in life while I'm stuck, rooted to the same spot. Then it got better, I got busy, life got a little easier, and I stopped writing.

Months later, I started another fanfiction: The Wedding Troops and its pairing fic, Off The Records.

The journey of The Wedding Troops is actually a really long one, with me installing and reinstalling the Fake Chat App I used to write the fic like, 4 or 5 times. There was a period where I stopped writing altogether. I stopped touching TWT and OTR and even, for a while, stopped contacting my beta reader. I was terribly busy and was completely absorbed in the bustling activity I'm facing every single day. Real life was too good for me to taint it with the crazy, draining effort of writing fics straight out of imagination.

Then December 18th happened and I just couldn't not write.

So the cycle continues and I write a few chapters. Then life gets better once more, and I have too many things to worry about, too many I need to finish, that I don't have time to indulge on my wild imaginations, no matter how much I wanted to.

Then, another wave of hits me; I broke up with my boyfriend and it left me with this intense feeling of disappoinment (both to myself and to my ex) and the feeling of being left undone. I was extremely relieved, but also wished that I could've yelled some more, cursed some more, and just generally inflict as much pain as he inflicted on me. There was no way out of the barelling emotions, so I did the only thing that could cheer me up significantly even on the darkest times: I write.

So I finished Off The Record, indulged on the feedbacks I got, and earned my self-esteem back.

In a way, maybe the reason I write is petty and selfish, because I do it to get feedback, to get validation, and to get personal closure (and pleasure) out of controlling a bunch of characters' lives. Maybe the reason I write is a tad unhealthy, especially now that I'm injecting too much of what I'm experiencing into the arch stories of my characters. But, well, it's my way to cope, and it works very, very well.

Thank you for reading this till the end. I don't know why you do it, but thank you.

Also thank you for showing so much love for On The Records. I love each and every one of your comments and they really do put a smile on my face, every single time. Thank you, kind strangers. I hope my fanfictions bring you as much pleasure as they bring me.