I don't EVEN know why I feel that I want to share this. It's kinda embarrassing, but it's somewhat how interesting how I would find myself "walking into" this daydream during my break at work. Funny thing is that I was WORKING on getting the calendar out to my ENTIRE school while I was daydreaming, which requires walking around and moving!!! I even bumped my bad leg once and it didn't jar me from it!!! The content of this day dream will let you know how and why I effed up and the calendar ALMOST missed being distributed!!! With THAT being said: Red = me Green = you'll see

I was in the second bedroom of my house on the second floor. (I really do own a 4 bedroom house; a duplex, just for your reference) I was creating a huge cat bed for my furbabies when AMBER LIU walked in!!! (Don't ask me why I wasn't surprised!! That explains itself as the daydream continues!!) I looked at her and smiled, but she didn't return it like she normally does. She just kinda jerked her lips in a quick smile that came and left in the same second. I stopped what I was doing and went to her side, putting my hand on her shoulder. She sat on the king sized bed in that room, hung her head and petted OUR cat Jag. He pooled up by her side purring and I could see her smile down at him. (Yes, that room has a huge KS bed!) I was smiling sadly at her and started to her hair, kinda like she was petting our cat. 

"I heard, Am. I'm so sorry."

Nothing

"It'll be okay."

Nothing. She just looked up at me with the saddest smile on THE planet. I pulled myself away from the thought of wanting to go over to someone's house and shake some sense into her and kept concentrating on Amber.

"I know she hurt you, Ber baby. I just don't know what to say."

"And YOU'RE not mad at me? You of all people?"

"No sugar...how can I be? WHY should I be?? She has been with you for almost half your life. I have only been with you for 4 years. (Somehow I knew we were dating...DON'T ASK ME WHERE THE HELL THAT WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL, GORGEOUS, OH SO SOUGHT AFTER LIE CAME FROM!!!) 

I patted her gently on her shoulder and head and turned back to my work when she grabbed my hand, pulled me back to herself, kissed it a few times and then it with her lips. She looked up at me with those perfect llama eyes. "I still have you, right?"

"Am, I'm not going anywhere. I don't care if you get another girlfriend, THIS *pointed my thumb at myself* girlfriend isn't leaving you EVER!!! I love you and am IN love WITH you!!!" I was forceful, but gentle.

"I love her still, Anne. I don't know what to do. Help me."  

"I don't know what to do either, but I know what NOT to do...desert you. Please try to be strong, but lean on me, okay?"

"Like this?" She stood up and hugged me. Of course I hugged her back. When she let me go, I saw the tears streaming down her cheeks. I cupped her cheeks.

"Well that is good for starters. Lean on me and NEVER hide your emotions. Just know that you are not alone...EVER! I will ALWAYS be here for you!!" I smiled, wiped the tears from her soft face with my thumbs and kissed her cheeks.

"I love you and am IN love with you too, Anne and...thanks." She said. She hugged me again, turning my back to the bed as she started to the back of my blouse and push me.......

I snapped to when 1 of the 3 students who were helping me gently touched me and said the copy machine I was leaning on was jammed. I worked on that while forgetting which teachers got the calendar, which caused me to send my helpers back all over my school AGAIN (which happens to be THE largest elementary school in my district!!) trying to see who had the calendar and who didn't. I'm still not sure if everyone got it...and I almost don't care!!!

Amber and Krystal have been on my mind since the news of Kaistal broke. I'm not sure if she and Krystal were dating on the sly, but, even though they HAVE security, SHE has always thought of herself as the girl's "protector" and Krystal's servant; her personal "stupid", so to speak. Amber cherishes those roles!! She said it herself in a very early interview that she always wanted to take care of and protect the members. You all saw the way she reacted when that guy attacked Sulli about her weight on that talk show where they were sitting around a makeshift pool. First, Choiza took the protector role in Sulli's life and now Kai has seemingly taken that place in Krystal's and I just KNOW that must make her so sad. I am thinking that Amber sees the girls slipping away from her and you all know how she feels about her girls. I'm just hoping that this is something that doesn't throw ANY of the girls "off their game". I still respect Sulli as a family member of f(x); she just doesn't perform with them. Still, I can't help but wish Kaistal well because I feel that it would be horrible of a fan to wish anything other than that. Knowing Amber's personality, as the true "Ambertarian" (fan club of one) that I am, I do believe with all my heart that she wishes the couple well even though.....

Your response and thoughts???

P.S. Whatever I had for lunch today, I am gonna eat for the rest of my life!!! I hope they have leftovers in the cafeteria tomorrow cause I'm gonna stock UP!!!! XP