Hi people!

So after contemplating for 2 days, I decide I've to write this.

As you probably know, I always write stories about LayStal (Lay and Krystal), I'm kinda a hard shipper for them.

And you must already know that Krystal is dating, but no, not with Lay. She's dating one of , and the member was Kai. It's already confirmed by the agency and the news already spread like a wildfire in every single Korean news portal I read.

Truth be told, I was really surprised with the news, Kai was my first bias in EXO, even until now, so I never ship him with anybody (boy/girl), I rarely read stories with him as a main characters. If you take a look at my profile, in 'Personal Message' section I put a picture with Kai on it (I delete it from my profile when the news broke out).

The first story that makes me fall in love with LayStal is "Miss No Label" but the story is discontinued now, so from that story I decided that I had to make a story that contains Lay and Krystal as a main couple. Because I simply think Krystal and Lay would make a cute couple, so I decided to wrote about them, only to find that my delusional imagination is really delusional.

Here's the thing, I still have two on-going stories that contains LayStal on it, "Someone Call The Doctors" and "Something is Happening"". For SCTD, I'll keep writing the LayStal part (since its only a chapter), but for SIH, there's still many chapters to go, and I just lost the feel. I don't know what should I do with that story anymore, should I change the characters? Or should I keep writing the story as it is? Or should I delete the story? I really don't know. I'll let time decided, if I really want to continue the story, then it's good, but if I delete the story, I'm really sorry.

I'll not delete my other stories if you're wondering. Maybe some of you thinks that I'm too much, its okay, maybe I'm too much. But I just want to share my thoughts here. And for the movie "Unexpected Love", maybe I'll still watch them. But my feels aren't the same anymore for them. My mind would keep repeating that Krystal is Kai's girl. So the thing with Lay is just for the movie.

As a fans, I'll still keep cheering EXO with their future works, this doesn't effect my support to them. As for Kai and Krystal, be happy both of you, I wouldn't be your shipper, but as long as you guys are happy, please live well. As for KaiStal shippper, congratulations that your ship is really sailing. And lastly for LayStal shipper as well as my readers, I'm sorry that I can't write about them anymore. I just want to stop. I have to stop. I just don't feel right to wrote about them anymore, maybe somehow in the future I'll write about them again as a couple, who knows? Maybe I'll write them as a main characters again but not as a couple, maybe I'm going to find another suitable partner for Lay. Just let the time decided what I want to do with stories I wrote in the future. And please keep supporting their upcoming movie, at least if they can't be together in real life, they can be together in a movie.

That's all from me now, feel free to drop your thoughts here on comment box or on my wall or talk to me in private messages, I'll reply every one of them. I'll see you soon on new chapter on my story:)!

Written on 4th March 2016

a broken-hearted LayStal shipper

- C. Syadiran -