we both know that we are not in the stage of another teenage relationship. we don't need another drama. we are already grown up, that's what you always told me. it's just simply me and you, just us two. when I see you, somehow I see the reflection of my self. that's how much we resembled each other. we hate the same s, love the same taste of foods, we like same taste in movies, you love taking pictures and I love get my pictures taken, you're simply the straw to my berry, the yin of my yang. we even had the same sarcasm! and I like you, because you are simply funny and sweet and gentle and the list can go on... and I love you, with all my heart, in all the in-between moments. you know, you are the person that hears me when I'm not even talking. you are the guy that can calm my speedy temper and convince me to leave my stress at the door. it's been a struggle for me to finally become comfortable around someone after the bad break-up I had with my ex, but with you, you are the calm over me. and I'm sure I already told you about this many times already.

but our story is not something that popped up from those fairy tale's. I remember hating you, for all the right things you never tried to do. I also remember you hating me, for all the bad words I said to you. we know our similiarty is going to be a boomerang to us, the reason that someday we're going to get into a huge fight, and go to bed angry. I know I might cry, and you'll don't care. Because you had enough. and I had enough. and in the end, there's nothing to fight about. there's no reason to staying anymore.

There were still pieces of you behind every door... But we do (not) deserve each other.  we are too similiar, it's good at first but at the end of the day, it's becoming boomerang to us. I start to get bored, and you starting to ask for more sparks. and most importantly, when I look into your eyes, its no longer the same. the man I love is no longer there, and I'm sure you feel the same way when you look into my eyes. there... we know that we no longer into each other. you deserve someone who gave you more sparks, and I deserve someone who gave me a new adventure. As much as we tried, as much as we hold on to each other. But still, I'm sorry, I was sorry... for not being able to say all this to you in person, for being prideful... and I'm sorry I didn't fight for you when you left and didn't try harder when you gave up, and sorry.... for giving up on you first, for giving up on us. the last one and half years had been amazing to me. we broke up is not because we don't love each other anymore, but that's the only way to make both of us happy. and your happiness... is always my number one priority.

we do (not) deserve each other.

you deserve better. I deserve better. we deserve better.

from your ex girl-'now' friend

Cass.