How do you think I feel when I'm not a Kai bias?

I'm actually still heart broken, I guess it's just like when Baekhyun was in a relationship, except this time was oddly... painful.

That's crazy, right? But I realized I have a huge soft spot for Jongin, like a lot. I guess that's why I'm kind of heart broken.

Tbh this whole day, I was feeling devastated on and off (if I don't remember it) but it has affected me so greatly, all I want to do right now is to punch myself in the face.

When I was talking to myself mentally

Me: You do know he doesn't know you exist right?

Me: ... I know

Me: You shouldn't feel so upset.

Me: I know I shouldn't. BUT HOW! I'M ON THE VERGE OF CRYING. I will cry to tonight. I'M FCKING TREMBLING HERE.

Me: I can see that... *watches her own hands shake*

Me: It will be fine. Hopefully...

But hey, look in the bright side, Jongin and Krystal are happy. I'm so happy for the both of them that they found happiness in each other. You know it's kind of that story where you wait for the guy to realize his feelings for someone and you're just like "HEY MR. OBLIVIOUS, SOMEONE LIKES YOU. NOW YOU BETTER NOTICE THAT PERSON OR I WILL STRANGLE YOU."

I'm pretty conflicted but I'm sure every Jongin stan and myself will heal. It may take time, but never forget Jongin loves us all dearly. 

Congratulations to Krystal and Jongin. ((: ♡