KAISTAL

Warning: If you are a hardcore KAISTAL shipper, I suggest you not to read this. Some curses may be found here and there.

 

I am trying to study and I had been succeeding so far. I am not active in all kpop fandoms I usually was since I will face my neational exams next Monday, April 4th. But what the is this?! I woke up this morning and my friends who are not even kpoppers were all talking about KAISTAL and when I read the news, I seriously didn't know how to react. THE NEWS BROKE MY HEART! 

What the is happening? My first bias in EXO -Kris- left and I moved on to Luhan. But he also left. Then this happens! I moved on to Kai and he is announced dating?! To be very honest, I am very disappointed. I tried to understand, I really did. I convinced myself that I have to be happy for my biases are happy but the thing is... I can't always think of their feelings. I can't always sacrifice my feeling. You might say I'm not a true fans or an immature fans or whatever you might call me but I can no longer say I am happy for them. No, I'm very unhappy.

The reason of why I am lack of ideas and motivation to write lately is actually because of EXO itself. It is the very first boyband that can get me fall head over heels to but the very first that give me a broken heart. Watching them who usually were 12 became 9 have always been hard for me and now I have to se Kai with Krystal dating? I'm done. I'm so ing done. I'm tired with all these. It really drained my energy and I felt like dying slowly *I might be exegerrating but I really felt like that*. No, I'm not crying. I'm more like disappointed and angry but I don't know to whom, probably to my own heart, to myself but I ain't gonna admit that since I don't want to hate myself. If ever I hate myself, I will be dead for I have no reason to be alive. The only reason I can still go on is because I still love myself.

I quit. This time, I will really quit. I'm not leaving kpop but I quit being a full time EXO-L. I don' want to get hurt anymore. I have to let go of them fully to be able to be happy again. I'm selfish, just like that.

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thequieteyes #1
I feel you, truthfully im okay with kaistal shipment since it was created long time ago, but then when it really happened and become reality...it felt different. somehow im getting hurt by the news too. but dont worry, time heal almost everything
uxoxome #2
For real, I don't find krystal and kai look sweet together. I'm not a big fan of EXO now but it still broke my heart to know that kai is dating krystal. Maybe one of the reasons is that because i ship myungstal but thats it; i cant do anything about it. They're dating for real.
For me, myungsoo and krystal look sweet together. You see, sometimes their faces can be alike.
I tried to find kaistal sweet moments but there are not a lot like baekyeon's. I seriously feel so disappointed right here. Kai and krystal both seem to have cold personality and that's actually what makes them look weird when they're together.
savoki48 #3
Agree..agree i never thought that kai is krystal's type..
Tinroro #4
Yeah..thanks I'm also have same feeling with you.. Its really broke my heart.. but I try to move on..it hurt though..Last night after I read about the news,I also dream about it...
bteasuga #5
I know how you feel dear.at first when I heard this news from my sister I was like what is going on here?i ..shocked.People will say that im an immature fan say what they like but my heart broke bc im kai fan.yeah I discover something im just a fan.i am the wrong one here.it's hurt.it'll took me a week to be myself back.im still sad about this news.i know I can do nothing bc im just a fan.this news brokes my heart.im not saying I hate this couple but you know im still processing this matter.i hope we can stay strong kai stans.

#nomatterwhatweareexo-l
kyungxing #6
Can i screenshot this and post to twitter ?
angelz4ever #7
i agree with you.
joyannBF #8
i totally agree with you.
lilissafitri #9
Kai's stan would never be the same anymore
It's just change everything. I'm not gonna lie myself and faking shrug and pretending that it's okay. No! It's not OKAY! It bleed my heart. I prefer to tell the truth about wjat I think, 'i hate kaistal'. I really do
esmiranda #10
well i just wanna leave this here : you see we need to remember that we are just their fans wich means support them give them love be happy when they are happy cause our oppa are human too ad this idol life they are living is just work for them and a human is not a robot human need love in his live wich's can not be provided by fans cause they are just fans and fangirl is just a period of our lives one day it will end and we will find our owen idol i do uderstand that your hurts but always remember your oppa is human too he can't love the fans and he cant marry the fans so plz support and give a lot of love to the new couple thank you :)
_felfeli #11
i know how u fell.. me too..i'm antikaistal and when one of my best friend who ship them told me this morning i was like 'dont lie..i know its april fool' and we had some arguments bcoz of this bulls**t but when i look into it was f**kig true and i dont know how to react at all...all my interst on exo's entirely vanished and now i could not even read any fics..i still hope that its not true T_T
clubcutness #12
Unnie do u want a hug?? I felt that same way when I heard I to am very heartbroken about the newa
-TUANA- #13
Relationships always happen, it's not in your hands.
And it isn't like you expected him to date you one day. If your bias is Kai, you should be happy for him. I'm a Baekhyun addict, but when I heard of the news of him and Taeyeon being together, I was just like you.
But actually after maybe a week, I got over my feelings since I know that this is a usual thing. He would date someone someday. And after they both broke up, I actually started to ship them - stupid, aren't I?

What I mean is, this is totally normal, you shouldn't quit for that. But you wanna quit? What are you waiting for? It's not like the fandom will lose anything. There are millions out there who ship them, and even millions who don't but are happy for his happiness. There are also some who are not, but they know it's normal.

If Kai is dating, you shouldn't hate him. If Baek's dating, I shouldn't hate him. Then, we'll be called real parts of the fandom.
junnosuke1 #14
I am crying I've been following him since his teaser and im very heartbroken because he was the only boy i have ever liked....... im feeling like too rip
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