Hey everyone! It's been so long since I last went on AFF, sorry for that. Really. Whenever I think of AFF, I simply feel bad, so bad for kind of just leaving it hanging like that. Leaving you guys.

Right now I have some time and I thought about updating you a bit and also proposing an idea. I was really busy with my finals and preparing for my uni application these past two months. As of now (I'll try to keep it short) I have finished my written exams in January and gotten the results today. I'm happy to share with you that they are really good and also happy to say that I'll probably have more time for you guys (though not quite in the fanfic way). In March I'll have my oral exam and then I'll officially graduate. Now, onto the short idea (because I'm going to ramble, I just know it.) I decided to create a fashion/beauty/art/book blog of sorts (lol) out of pure interest in this domain and in search for sth that'll help me give you guys sth without draining myself too much (further details down below). Nothing is set and so far I created a side tumblr blog and a wordpress (bc I couldn't decide which platform hah) and just finished writing my first fashion haul review (wuhu) that I'd like to share with you guys. ;) It's a sheinside haul and here are the links. On tumblr, on wordpress. If you're interested in that sort of thing you can follow me or so. I'm trying to become more active on the Internet in another way (not fanfic-related), by posting reviews of things on these two blogs (of fashion, makeup, books, anime perhaps? it's really open so far). I'll post some pics here of the things I reviewed and let you decide whether you're interested or not.

Hopefully, I'll have both more time and motivation to write once I've graduated because I have to say, as much as it pains me to say ... my drive to write has weakened over the past few months. I sometimes feel like writing, but more often I want to read or draw/paint (since I have to prepare a portfolio for the uni). But at the same time, I've come to the conclusion that still want to write something, just not always stories (and fanfics are kind of problematic too now that I am pretty much out of Kpop.. :/ ). And honestly, after reading into my stories I feel rather ashamed at some embarrassing, cringy, way too angsty parts. I think I need to recreate my kind of witing in the future.

Lately, I've been feeling that I really enjoy blogging of sorts. Talking about new favorite books and anime, which I've often done in the past and I could imagine doing that about clothes and other beauty-related stuff too. It would be something new, and more of an experiment so far, just to try it out, now that I have a little more time than before. If I had less to do with uni and oral exam, I'd totally try it out. But since it's still a little stressful, I'm just venturing atm. And I've been looking for a way to keep in contact with you guys, to "give" you something that is not creative writing. Because I realized that as much fun as creative writing is to me, it is fun that requires effort. That effort often drains me (maybe I'm the only one because some people actually relax while writing). I feel that reading is more relaxing to me, so is painting and drawing, and of course going on tumblr to fangirl is also very relaxing. And as of right now, the only story I still feel motivated to finish is mnemonic (but even that motivation is little right now) because it's closer to real life than rich heiress drama (no offense, Bittersweet, lol). Writing was a source of expressing myself as well as entertaining myself. I feel that I am entertained quite nicely by the books I'm reading atm because due to my exhaustion from everything else in real life I am pretty much ready for any kind of outlet, lol. And I feel that next to reading and painting in my free time (the rest is for friends and family and future preparation next to school) I lack the time to become so bored with every kind of fiction that I'd feel the need to create sth myself. For that matter, I'm at a point where I've read so many good books that I realized I truly lack a lot. And before I have improved my English, I won't feel comfortable writing stories.

 I don't want to stop writing forever. No. Never. I'm just looking for a more relaxing and less time-consuming way to practice writing in English, until I am confident enough in my writing and language skill and have enough time and motivation to work on a story again. Because stories are such a huge responsility. Part of you always wants to finish the story, but some other part has grown up and grown away from the story you've started years ago. But that's a topic for another time.

So, my current idea is to set up a blog (I created a separate tumblr blog next to my normal one where I'm just fangirling). And that's it, basically. I hope this is kind of interesting for you guys, and that you can understand where I'm coming from with this.

 I'll be going to sleep now, wishing you good luck with everything you're doing, and thank you for sticking with me if you're reading this. I'll check comments asap (though I can't promise replies.) Bye!