Im not sure if there will be anyone who will be bothered to read this so im currently thinking of i should start this blog with a hi or hello again. 

Im currently listening to Day6's Congratulations. Seriously if you haven't heard it, you should go and listen to it. The song is seriously very nice like seriously the best. I love the sound of the drum and the guitars and finally the voices of the pretty boys in the group. I love their voice so much. 

I should not stop typing this up. I should not distrupt the flow of emotions running through my mind making my fingers type the words that i think is too hard to say out loud. Im turning a year older next week Saturday. In fact i do every year and that fact stop me from letting out my feelings almost every year. What im feeling now might just be gone in a week or a month after this but as it happens my heart feels so heavy as of right now it feels so heavy so moody.

When i have the compulsion to let out my feelings somewhere, my heart or brain tell myself,

this is not how you should act at this age,

are you a kid? why would you post your feelings to any of this social platforms

what will people think when they read this?

dont do it! you are old enough to know that you cant do that!!!

you are so stupid to post this things?!!!

do you hear how pathetic that sounds?

Forgive me if this sounds like a pathetic cry for help or attention but i hope i will feel better once i read this. if you think this is a pathetic act please dont continue reading this. im.. im sorry.. 

i have so many words in my mind. i have so much to say to type but they are not coming out like i want. 

February, my favorite month of the year~ but this year its not looking colourful like it should be or like it used to be. :(

just pretend you never read all that.. :) have a nice day..