The Struggle of Writing

Ugh....

So I'm sitting here in front of my computer trying to get up the motivation to write. Anymore, writing feels like a chore and that's not a good thing. I love writing. There are so many stories that I want to write. But at the same time, there are so many stories that I have to finish. As some of you may know, if you follow me on line or on my different profiles on AFF, you know I went through a recent falling out with my co-author and after splitting the stories, it's now left to me to upload them.

I suppose I don't have finish them and upload them. They could just be deleted. But at the same time, you knwo we worked hard to get them going, they were very much inspired by picture and actions of different groups. I love most of them, some I want to redo and some actually need to progress past the first chapter. Most are, however, almost done, and it just needs a little bit more to make it complete.

So what's the problem you wonder?

Good question. I don't know. I guess maybe the issue is because this is a combination of the two of us, me and my ex co-author. So when I go back to reread the fics, there is as much as her in the story as there is me. And it just throws me off. Not because she wasn't a good writer, she was, it's just that now I have to take over her part as well and sometimes I don't know where she was going with things. It's much harder for me to come up with the plot line now. And it's...not daunting, but almost intimidating really. 

And it just leaves me never wanting to write again. If it was my own story and I knew the story line for everything and the plot outline for all the characters, it would be that bad. But it's not like that and I just don't know what to do other than just...push myself to do it all regardless of how I feel. They need to get done. Maybe once I finish them all, I'll feel like I have more free time and can work specifically on my own stories. It'll make me feel better in the end I think.

What do you guys think? Or am I just being a stupid baby? I don't know. Maybe I'm also just being lazy....God this is horrible.

Anyway, I'm gonna try to push myself through it and get it done. So I also want to give you all a little list of the fics that are going to be coming out and the status of them. All of them are going to be the unfinished co-author fics.

ybakura AFF

Stay With Me: Baekyeol - 95% Complete
You're What?!: Krisyeol & Layhun - 75% complete
Untilted: ChanHan - 30% complete
A Week of Hell: KrisHo, SuKris - 29% complete
Bad Good Boy: ChenKai - 60% complete
Kyungsoo's Frustrations: Chansoo - 89% complete
The Lost Prince: Baekyeol, XuiHan, Kaisoo - 15% complete
A Series of Baekyeol Oneshots: Baekyeol - 10% complete
When Staying Home Completes Your Life: Taohun - 0% complete
Baby Drama Brabbles: KrisYeol - 5% complete
I Can Top Too!: KaiBaek - 5% complete
Yifan's Princess: KrisBaek - 20% complete
Baby Grind On Me: SeBaek - 50% complete
Odd Sequel: Baekyeol - 50% complete
Baekhyun Play: ChenBaek - 40% complete
Untilted: ChenBaek - 5% complete
Parental Advisory Explicit Content: KaiSoo - 70% complete
KrispyBacon: KrisBaek - 80% complete
Curiosity Killed the Chanyeol: Baekyeol - 5% complete
Baekhyun The Lonely Puppy Sequel: Baekyeol - 19% complete
Fairytail Lover: Baekyeol - 95% complete
The Kink List: ot12 - 5% complete
Nameless Faces: HunHan, LayKai - 5% Complete
Death Is Only The Beginning: many pairings - 5% complete
VEXXO: Vixx & EXO - 50% complete
Come to Daddy: SuShik (Suho and Ravi) - 50% complete

Sudaddykim AFF

After School Club After Dark: 10% complete
iGot7 Girlfriends: 5% complete
The Sisterhood of the Traveling Loom: 1% complete
I Won't Say I'm In Love: 15% complete
EXO Next Door: The Fanfic: 10% complete
EXO Goes Camping: 0% complete

 

So those are all the fics that I need to work on and complete and I have found a few I need to post as well since they are completed. So I hope I can get to work on these soon and start posting again and getting back into writing. I hope I can get past these feelings and get back into the spirit and love writing again. 

Have faith in me guys!

 

Update #1: 2/9/16 10:19pm - So I got a few comments from people that I should communicate with my co-author about the stories and stuff and I just need to say...the falling out was bad. Very, very, very bad. And we no longer talk. Basically we were also dating and I broke up with her. So....yeah. Communication isn't going to happen. Also because she's not active on AFF anymore and posting things and such. So yeah....I'm basically on my own on this. But thanks for the advice!

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BellaBeau #1
Maybe you can get a new co author? Someone with similar style to your former co author
alpha_wee #2
i know that feeling. it's just make me going so crazy, though. stuck in one story just take me down some times. more over more than that. it's just make me want to put aside my head some times.;P.(if it possible, I'll do it for a while to make my headache lessen. and i can continue again with feel more freshen). keep a fight to your story and keep to writing, okay. take your time to freshen your mind and resting your brain a little may be will helping.
NoorKyra #3
Oh my....!!! The story list......... I'm don't want to makes you even more depressed..... Oh my...!!!
I know...a story that's created from a two author 's mind and now to complete a story alone.....it's quite a struggle... I don't mind to wait a bit for your update... Keep writing and hwaiting author nim...!!!! (^_^)ノ
fanficlover123 #4
you can take your time, really. its better than just forcing yourself to write and produce something, then hating to write afterwards. i think writing is fun, i do love to write essays, def no fics bc my story writing . point is, i would rather you take a break from all of these first and come back when you have cleared yourself of whatever bad stuff is in your mind. i hope you will love writing, its fun and it will be a pity if you start to hate it. take a break, have a kit kat :p love what you do, so you will enjoy doing it. hope to see you here in asianfanfics for a long time, bc most of my fav authors are not here anymore. :( don't stress yourself out too much ya.
sparkl3ysparx #5
So many. All I can say is comunicate with each other. See what direction you and the co-authors are trying to go, soo that a compromise can be reached befitting you both. I would also start with the ones almost finished. Good luck I hope I was a help.
ExoFanRhea #6
I understand what you mean, and it's okay!! It's completely up to you what to do with the stories, you can even twist them however you want to!! They are your stories and you do what you want with them. If you don't want to finish them, you don't have to; if you do, you can completely change everything in it for a giant plot twist! It's all about what YOU want to do, so don't worry about messing it up(: you can't mess up YOUR own story. Who cares what you do, as long as you're happy(:
RiddledBacon #7
Know that feeling completely and it usually takes me about 6 months to write one fecking chapter because most of the time I want to write but just have a total block.
To be honest, i recently deleted a lot of the stories i had and went from 26 stories to 7 and that was hard but made me feel like there was less pressure. I still have the stories saved on my computer incase i want to write them again but it really took a load of.]

I hope you feel better soon mate!
bubble1765 #8
Girl, I know that feeling. Just the whole "I want to update but just looking at the chapter I have to finish makes me tired" feeling.

It .

So no worries!!!
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