A random blog post made while handling cramps and mentally crying over school. Dedicated to the one and only Jeon Jungkook (not that he’ll ever read this but still).

My dear, dear Kookie,

Why?

Whyyyyyyy?

Oh my goodness, I just can’t with you. Ugh. Why have you become my biggest bias wrecker all of a sudden? How on earth did you push away the other five and got yourself latched onto second(?) place? This is your fault. You’re such a damn beautiful human being and I love you so damn much and now look what you’ve done to me. Ohhhh myyyy gooooosh.

Really, I didn’t even realise when I started getting attached to you so much. It’s kind of a surprise, I mean, you were my least favourite when I first got to know Bangtan. I was like “Ooh, so many people like him so I won’t like him” and naturally had that nasty mindset because I tend to not like mainstream things (but you are not a ‘thing’ ok, honey). I even got bored of listening and seeing so many people talk about you. Yeap, I definitely wasn’t an ARMY back then. I don’t know, there was nothing about you that charmed me, I guess (how ridiculous). There were times I’d watch old Bombs and be like “Aw, such a cutie!!!” but it wasn’t solid affection.

So, yeah, I don’t know when or how the hell I managed to end up admiring you so damn much. Probably after early 2015? But how?!?!

From not paying that much attention to you, you’re now my entire world (besides your hyungs, of course). From simply liking you as a part of my favourite boy group, you’re now the only celebrity that I slip out calling ‘my baby’ at times. From not caring about you as much as I cared for the others, Jungkook, man. . . you mean everything to me.

And there’s nothing about you that I don’t like, now. Everything about you either makes my heart ache beautifully or throb against my chest like it’s gonna jump out of my ribcage.

Your adorable bunny teeth that gives your smile a special shine, your tired eyes that light up when you smile, your hair (Hormone War and DOPE hair; shoot me pls), your amazing singing voice and the way you mumble when you talk, the way you never want to wear anything else but a plain white T-shirt and Timberland boots, how you can go from 0 to 100 to 100000 and vice versa in the blink of an eye, how you’re so shy with girls and with strangers, how you’re both spoiled and feared by your hyungs, I can go on and on.

Bangtan as a whole is my very own love story—very pathetic, I know, sigh—but Jungkook. . . Lmao, and I say I hate hate-turns-to-love stories. Except I’ve never hated you, Kookie, just didn’t favour you as much.

And now guess what? Your last name is a part of my Twitter username and you’re very well included directly in my Tumblr particulars also. (and your Simpson Sonyeondan fanart is my lockscreen wallpaper because hella cute)

Okay, I don’t even know what I just wrote but hey, Kookie, you’re beautiful, super talented and I hope you keep growing into an even more beautiful person. (and please listen to your hyungs) I’ll support you and have your back; every genuine ARMY/Bangtan stan will. I wuv you loads, kiddo. Take care. ♡

[ now if only I can print this out and send it to him. . . . . . . . . ]