I don't know y I do this but every time I open my laptop n go on Chrome, I go through the news feed n it completely takes up my time cuz I keep reading them till the point I get bored of them n proceed to y I really opened Chrome xD 

okay so I came across a topic about girls who's been cheated on n I just had to open it cuz I'm too curious to just pass it. Anyway, reading it completely brought me to tears cuz I remembered the heartbreak n the restless nights that I spent crying n asking myself questions like, "y am I not good enough?" "what did I do wrong" "I gave him my everything yet it's still not good enough" "where did I go wrong" "y am I such a horrible person?" n the questions just kept going on n on n on. Most of u guys don't know that I went through a heartbreak last year n I was depressed for an entire year but I was on here n I always pretended to smile n be happy cuz I'm the type of person who never shows what I'm feeling except for ppl that I can literally count on one hand, that includes my boyfriend who's such an amazing person n I would never wish for someone else cuz he's the only person who was able to bring me out of this heartbreak n he made me believe in myself again, I completely lost hope n I just literally wanted to die n thought of many ways of how I'd die but I never acted on them. Artu took the two separate pieces of my broken heart n put them back together n slowly erased that crack in the middle. It took me, I think, 3 or 4 months to accept him as my boyfriend again n he never, not even for a split second, gave up on me n what we could be n I'm so grateful that he never let me go. I'm also a little thankful for the person that broke my heart cuz he taught me so much n if he never broke my heart, I wouldn't have had the chance to get back with Artu cuz if it wasn't for that heartbreak, Artu wouldn't have been able to erase that crack n show me that he truly is worth every bit of my love. 

I love u babe, never forget that.

okay, so what I read is...

12 Things You Need to Know Before Dating a Girl Who Has Been Cheated On

A lot of us have been there: You were cheated on and you know you have to get back on the dating horse. (What's a dating horse? Nevermind.) You're super-suspicious of everything your new partner is doing, and you don't know if you'll ever trust someone again. Just go ahead and send this list to the next guy you date. He'll get it.

1. She's been heartbroken, and she doesn't trust easily. Look, it's not your fault that her last guy was a jerk, but you're going to have to work a little harder and follow through on whatever you say with actions, so she knows she can really trust you. Just give her some time, once she trusts you and you're consistent with what you do and say, you're golden.​

2. She sees you texting under the table - and don't even think about saying it's "no one." If your new girl was burned in the past, she never wants to feel that pain again. And chances are she's going to be looking for warning signs up front. So be honest with her and you'll earn her trust. See point number one.

3. She doesn't want to take it fast, but she does want to know you're serious about the relationship. She can't help it, she's a bit insecure because of what the last guy did to her, but can you blame her? Bottom line: If you're not that into her or not "ready to be with someone right now," don't lead her on.​

4. She's probably going to quiz you about your guy's night out. Just like she's going to ask you who you're texting occasionally. But this is a fair and totally normal question to ask if you're going to be in a relationship with her - unless you're up to something shady, in which case she'll dump you like that *snaps fingers*.

5. Taking pictures with random chicks or bottle girls and posting them on social media will only cause her pain. You know how people's minds work: Before you can even explain what happened, she'll think you're dating one of them and have cheated on her 11 times. That's just where her mind goes until you earn her trust.

6. She's going to want to meet your friends, so they know she exists. Guys who don't introduce girls to their friends are up to something. Period. 

7. Her cheat radar is off the charts. ​Once a girl has been cheated on, she can see a red flag a mile a way. Do something shady and she won't hesitate to call you out, because girlfriend isn't going through another heartbreak. 

8. She might over-share details of her last relationship, hoping desperately that history doesn't repeat itself. It's a defense mechanism: she'd rather you know what she went through, so you don't do the same thing to her (just in case you're that kind of guy). 

9. If you've ever cheated on a girlfriend, she's going to hard pass on dating you. Even if it's not true, she's heard the phrase "once a cheater, always a cheater" and she's not taking any chances.

10. She has very complicated feelings about her ex. Yes, he was the worst person alive, but also she misses him sometimes. Probably just don't talk about him.

11. She has borderline intimate relationships with her best girlfriends. They were there for her when she hated men, and they are inseparable. She's never going to ditch them for you. And also you should befriend them - they're probably way cool anyway.

12. She will never, ever, ever cheat on you. She knows how painful it is, and would never inflict that on another person.

as I said, only ppl who has been cheated on will understand y this is so painful cuz they went through it n so have I. N for those of u who's still in a heartbreak, don't waste ur time cuz s/he isn't worth ur tears, there's someone out there who's waiting for u n s/he'll erase that crack just like Artu did with me n I can trust him with anything n everything, hell I can leave him in a room with the hottest girl alive n walk away to go do something n I'll know for a fact that he will never wrong me cuz I know how much he loves me n I love him the exact same way (I love u more don't get ahead of urself babe :p still winning ;P) n I know he won't let me go so easily cuz I was a pain in his neck when I made him wait so long but point is, he waited n he won't let go of someone he wanted for a long time. I'm so thankful for him n he always proves to me that he loves me one way or the other, for example, he always, always makes time for me even if he was exhausted like before he goes to work, he messages me n when he gets home, he messages me n he makes sure to talk to me every day even if it only was two times a day n that makes me happy cuz I know I'm someone important to him n he's so important to me too. Gosh I can talk about him forever hehe... I'm kinda blushing a little cuz I honestly never, in my life, loved someone as much as I love u babe. 

okay, this turned into a really cheesy blog! but I'm happy for that cuz my baby gets to read what I feel about him which tells me that I'm for sure gonna put a smile on his face n that's what keeps me going. I mean even when we fight or argue, we instantly solve it n we don't let it bother us at all which's just so amazing for me n it's so amazing how he handles all my childish acts! hahaha I always get my way though #teamgirls I just love him to death n I freaking still get butterflies in my tummy talking about him n my cheeks blush n I can't stop smiling, that's a proof to u that I'm so freaking happy with him n would forever wanna be this happy with him. 

I just hope that every heartbroken person out there find the person who makes them happy just like I did cuz everyone deserves happiness. N I also hope that ppl would stop playing with other's feelings cuz ppl's feelings aren't a game, u can completely destroy a person's feelings by just one sentence. So careful cuz the heart is really fragile. 

okay, babye! have a nice day ahead or evening/night/afternoon/morning xD wherever u r, have a nice rest of ur day bye