"You add happiness to my day and tears to my night".. I honestly don't know when these feelings developed but all I know is that, it became one of my biggest mistake. If I knew liking you would make me so pathetic, I wouldn't have commited myself. Thinking of you, listening to sad songs and reading sad quotes.. the colors slowly fade and all that's left are blurry memories of how we were "friends".. even that, did you consider me your friend? even just as a friend? I know we've grown apart and people might doubt if we actually knew each other since we became strangers.. but I never forget, those summer we spent playing, laughing and talking. Walking home together and constantly taking stops so that our time together would be longer. If I had a time machine..As pathetic as it sounds.. I'd rather have you near me bragging about your crush than become what we are now.. I don't care if the girl you wanted wasn't me, all I want is to talk to you again..Although for some reason I can't bring myself to converse with you anymore, is it because I can't pretend I don't feel anything towards you? Is it because I don't want to smile pretending like your not the one who brings me to tears when I feel lonely.. I'm not a liar therefore I gurantee I won't be able to surpress how I feel around you, you who always ruined my train of thought, you who makes me smile, you who breaks my heart, you who drowns me but won't let me die. I don't know why I keep holding on to these feelings but you can go to anyone you want, you probably don't care but I promise you I'll be fine.. eventually, since your happiness shall become mine.. One day I'll smile looking at how happy you are with her, and if she leaves you, know that I'll comfort you.. even if you don't notice I'll be here always willing to wait.. because I know no matter how much time passed, a part of me will always keep waiting.